Hello everyone, my name is Diana, this is part two, my friendship with Melissa.
see here we start of wrong, there never was, will or is a friendship with M , none whatsoever, but let us roll on …children…
So it was, you know, I spent 17 years doing the transcriptions for Alan and I’m just going along.
On March 6th, I got an email at about 10.30 in the morning and from Alan Watts’ email, you know, Alan Watts cutting through at yahoo.com, saying, May I have your phone number, thank you.
That is still two days after the official death…amazing how accurate mrs Diana s memory is here in this instance, do not worry, that will soon deteriorate…drastically
And I didn’t quite know what to even think of this, you know, obviously Alan had sent me emails from time to time, was generally, I would send the transcripts and he would say, you know, thank you, much appreciated, and that’s about it.
Every once in a while, he might, you know, email me something like, you know, this is a Scottish slang word and this is how you spell it, something like that, not a whole lot of personal chit chat back and forth and that was okay.
hihihi oh how funny hihihihih..a scottish joke hihihihi…what a laugh, come on now , darlings I would never dare to TALK to ALAN ffs wow…only worked for him decades but I never said one word..ok …sound very hmm ya..Hmm hmmm eh..plausible…
But this was, may I have your phone number, thank you, I just couldn’t even fathom what he would want to talk to me about, I was a little flattered and I, you know, I didn’t know what to think.
Thinking is not your strongest point Diana , so please behave and do not try that again you are a cult member, cult members do not think, never, golden rule
So I was going to sit on it because it was a Saturday and I thought, well, I’ll wait till Monday.
????? Ya…whatever , sounds valid to me ,,the big guru calls you personally , after 17 YEARS and you deliberately ignore him ? sounds plausible to me ..
Well, I didn’t reply and so by about five o’clock that afternoon, I got another email saying, you know, you know, instead of me getting your phone number, would you mind calling me and put the phone number in the email and I’m like, you know, wow, okay, and this is, it was signed Bev and I’m like, well, who the heck is Bev, but it’s regarding Alan.
Who the heck is Bev, indeed, sounds like a scammer to me …do not pick up the phone Diana or you will be screwed 🙂
So I was really perplexed that I didn’t know what to think and I believe I called later that evening because I remember the shock, you know, the sadness, it was about seven o’clock at night.So anyway, Bev introduced herself and told me what had happened. She told me that Alan had died, that she was asleep in bed.She heard a noise, him falling and that she found him on the floor next to the bed reaching for a book.And I remember when she said that, I was like, oh, I guess that makes sense, Alan reaching for a book.But I don’t even remember what else was discussed, I went into shock and I don’t think the conversation was more than five maximum 10 minutes and so that’s how I learned about Alan’s death.
Darlings, this spontaneous amnesia is a recurring theme , througout all the ” exposes” Diana has given, a total load of crap , lies, deceit and damage control, total shill, but let us gently move on..
But time moved along and Melissa and I started getting to know each other, you know, over the weeks, I don’t think I heard from her or talked to her for a month or two.
You know, I didn’t know her, we weren’t friends, but she called me a few times. And so in that process, this is, well, how did you meet Alan and move there and come
to be his girlfriend and live with him and all that.She told me the story that she had heard him, you know, I always want to say radio show,but what I mean to say is, you know, his podcast and his broadcast is what he would call it and that she called him, they got to know each other.
I think she told me she fell in love with him right away and that eventually she moved up there and when she’s telling me this, I was like, oh my goodness, Melissa, you’re never going to believe this, but I had the exact same idea, not that I had fallen in love with Alan, but I, you know, I really respected him and thought, wow, he would be awesome to know and have as a partner, but I was already living with my boyfriend for years and was like, well, how is this going to work?
You know, I, you know, obviously I can’t just go up there.
I’d have to call him and get to know him and in that process, you know, I’ve got to at some point visit him and then after that, you know, if things work out, move up there.
So I’m visualizing the whole thing and thinking, well, how am I going to tell my boyfriend, yeah, I want to go visit another man in another country because I kind of got a crush on him, you know, and I realized, no, Diana, that’s not going to work, you know, just listen to him, learn from him and ultimately I wound up doing the transcriptions.
at least Diana admits it , from the horse s mouth , ladies and gentlemen, voila, there you have it…cult member, obsessed, etc, the whole nine yards..
But I told Melissa, I had the exact same idea. I mean, I even visualized what I’d have to do here in my house, you know, break up with my boyfriend, you know, whatever, all the little details went through my head over the course of two or three weeks and I finally realized, no, that’s not what’s going to happen.
So, but I just found it was fascinating.And so time moves on and, you know, I had been living in my head for 15 years as Alan talks about living in your head because he teaches you so much.
It’s, there’s not a whole lot of people that you can talk to about his information, you know, how the world is set up and how it’s structured and et cetera, et cetera.And so after 15 years, I mean, yes, I had my boyfriend, he wasn’t really interested. People I worked with, you know, not really awake.But I was like, oh, my gosh, not only am I going to have an awake friend, I hoped it’s Alan’s woman.
I mean, not only is she weak, but she knows him and his information. And so I was thrilled and I was like, okay, Diana, calm yourself down.
She’s got a lot going on, you know, her love of her life just died.
but you could not be bothered to ask any normal human questions, like how was the funeral, or was his family informed and when will you leave, what happens to his stuff, bla bla .. no ?
She’s got to close out a house, do a funeral or whatever, move to wherever she’s going to move.
” or wathever” not really important at all…facts are not important to Diana..
You know, so I, you know, I had to kind of put my excitement on hold.
But I was like, oh, my gosh, I’m going to be friends with Alan’s woman.
My hope was, you know, so, so times moving on.
I think it was, but it was spring, summer of 21.
We’re getting to know each other.
I noticed something odd when we would talk that whatever topic we were talking about,
she’d always insert a paragraph or two of what Alan would have said, almost identical to what he would have said on one of his shows.
And just the same way that Alan would say it. And I was like, what does she think?
I don’t know what Alan talked about.
I mean, I transcribed for 17 years.
I know these topics.
I know the subject.
I mean, it just seemed unnatural to me.
I just thought that she would assume that I would understand and not need to be instructed,
I guess, is what I’m trying to say.
And I never said anything to her about it.
oh wow another recurring theme it is either amnesia , selective memory OR simply never ask questions…
I just thought it was a really unnatural way to have a conversation.
And I also realized too that when I was doing the transcriptions that I did that at first was, wow, when I would try to talk about something, I would try to say it in the exact same way Alan did. And so I thought, well, I guess she’s just around him so much.
And she’s not really had an opportunity to talk with other people, obviously with Alan. But she just hadn’t found her voice yet in the way that I did after doing the transcriptions. It’s a little off-putting, but I just kind of let it lie.
And I noticed it, it went on for a very long time.
well if you dont tell her to shut the fuck up , yes, she will keep on rambling with her delusions
And it would always just kind of, I’d say, Melissa, yeah, I did the transcripts.
You remember I did the transcripts, right?
And I don’t even remember what her response was, but it was, I always just felt as though she wanted to tutor me, so to speak.
And I’m thinking, I already know it.
Thank you.
So it’s at this point that she’s grieving, closing out their house.
She’s packing, figuring out where to live.
she is grieving so much , so much , a few days after his death she is putting up her new reduxes , she is grieving so much
what a joke , total fucking farce
She sent me a handwritten letter telling me that she was going to move to her family in Texas.
I was thrilled for her.
It was COVID, and I thought that’s probably the best place to be is with your family.
And I also was thinking, they live on donations.
I don’t know what her financial situation is, but obviously Alan’s gone.
??? so you made that up too, you ” assume” , that is fantasy, you have seen no record, no documentation of AW media inc or bank accounts, so you guessing in the dark …
Let me send her some money to help her with the move.
So I sent $2,000 and I didn’t hear much from her for the first year.
that is funny as later on Diana claims to have not known Melissa s last name for a YEAR ? Her own words, so we another LIE here, you see that is exactly the real reason why none of those jokers will ever be stupid enough , like diana here to TALK facts, as it will screw you up , like happens here
I didn’t expect to.
She had a lot to deal with, you know, and I didn’t even know her last name for about the first year.
Bingo !!!! how can you send money to melissa for her to move if you do not know her name ..ow bummer 🙂 FAIL
But I, you know, as excited as I was to have a friendship with her, I also knew, you know what?
Alan’s dead.
She’s got to close out the house.
She’s got to cross the border with an entire household of stuff during the height of COVID and lockdown madness and mask madness.
Would be nice if we can have some valid background information why she had to leave and who or how the inheritance was handled ? No ? Too much asked ? Yes ?
And I was like, you know what, Danny, just calm yourself down.
Focus on the transcripts.
When you hear from her, you’ll hear from her.
I didn’t call her obviously because all they had was a landline.
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Hold on, hold the feck on …what did you say , could you please repeat that , you little shill ?
what did you say
you did not call her , obviously , because they had a landline …ok starting to foam here already
So that’s kind of what about the first six months or a year was, is me kind of sitting around anxious, waiting for her to call, you know.
ok , it is ok D it is ok, you can stop shaking now, the guru will call soon
So as I would get some of those calls, we were getting to know each other.And Melissa had told me that she felt that Alan was just as important as Jesus.
I would say way more important that jesus but hey that is just me
And when she said that, I kind of hesitated.Now, at that time, I was not a baptized Christian.I was not saved.
you are still not saved
I did not have a relationship with Jesus.And I was, it’s still kind of, I was like, no, no, no, no, no.
But I was, and I said, well, yeah, I think I wanted to, I didn’t want to, you know,
have a little disagreement, not that I disagreed with her.
oh no , never say no to the guru
But I said, yeah, Alan is important.He can wake up the world.So in that sense, I read with her.And so because Alan’s information affected me profoundly, I went from being
incredibly naive and uninformed to understanding.
Another big fat lie, Diana you were always incredibly naive and ignorant, that , dear, is never going to change, I am so so sorry to break it to you
no hard feelings ?
I like to say that Alan gave me a better than university education.I will still say that to this day.So, but it just, I just, that always struck me that he was just as important as Jesus.
And I was like, wow, okay.And that was my first real clue that she was a Christian.I think I may have asked her or she may have offered.I don’t remember.
I don’t remember.
I don’t remember.
I don’t remember.
I don’t remember.
It is getting fecking boring diana, read from the script , you clown
I was like, oh, wow, she’s talking about Jesus.You must be a Christian.Now, my husband’s a baptized Christian.We didn’t really talk about Jesus through the Bible much.
But here I am interacting with Melissa.She’s talking about something like, oh, wow, you know, so time’s moving along.And she was telling me about how a few months before Alan passed away, that the two of them had talked about and decided on getting a cell phone.So they went to, I forget what store it was.And the store had a deal going that day.
So they got a cell phone and a tablet.
And she’s telling me about how when they got home and they’re turning them on and
setting them up and all that, that her and Alan had had arguments, not over them.
But, you know, just setting them up.
And she felt like the technology did that.
And, and I said to her, I said, Melissa, it happens to all of us.
When you get a new piece of technology, you don’t understand how it works.
It takes a while to find the groove of it and it causes anxiety and exasperation.
And if the two of you are working on it together, I could see how you have arguments.
And she’s like, oh, no, no, no, no, that wasn’t it.
It was, it was the technology itself.
And I still look back and think about that now and think, well, did you think
the technology was sending a little ray into your brains?
And that’s why you were arguing.No, it’s because you don’t understand what you’re doing, right?
But she, she disagreed with me.And I thought, well, okay, she’s been out of the loop for 15 years.
So I’m not, I’m not going to press it.
always keep your naive mouth shut, never ask a question , always obey, be a good sheep
and ..donate of course …
But the thing that got me was I always remembered how often and how vehemently Alan had talked about not ever having a cell phone.
And I thought, well, why did he change his mind?
You know, I don’t know what’s going on.I think Melissa told me something.
I can’t remember what it was.
Can I scream now, very loud 🙂
Oh Diana this thing , it it not taking off, is it, it is not going anywhere, sweetcheeks, what a farce …shilling on …
Just that they realized that they needed to step into the future or something I don’t remember.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
But I was like, no, I was like, that’s awesome because you’re in the process of moving and, you know, I didn’t know if you were going to have a landline
at your Texas house. And so I was just excited I was going to be able to contact her wherever she might be, you know, even though I didn’t call her because I knew she was so busy
and so preoccupied and so much was going on.
I always waited for her to call me.
rolling eyes…praying hands
So, and then time’s on and she was telling me about how she was emailing me.And this is how I have the timeline going here as I went back through all of our emails.
So this is now the time period where for some reason PayPal stopped doing donations for Alan’s website.And so Melissa had to take the time to figure out what company, where, when, why, and how.And, you know, and I remember thinking, you know, I was kind of, I was kind of relieved to not be sending donations anymore.I’ve been sending a hundred dollars a month to Alan for 17 years.
And I remember thinking, well, I’m not responsible to support your woman.
You know, yeah, I wanted to be friends with her, but I didn’t want to feel like I had to donate as well.
I thought, you know, this is her life.
It’s her path.
She’ll find her way.
But as we got, got to know each other and I’m thinking, well, she is posting his talk still.
no she is not , she is doing her prattle and throws in some of his stuff in her guff, her garbage
She is this.
She is that.
And so I thought, well, I think it was about three, four months after we met, I thought, you know, I’ll send $50 a month.
And she selected Stripe as a, as the company for her donations.
And I was thrilled because I used to send a hundred dollars cash per month through the snail mail up to Alan.
I do not assume you did send two K over snail mail did you ?
And, um, but now I could just subscribe and it was handled.So it was convenient, you know.
And, uh, nice.
And, and then after, I was about three more months after that, we got to know each other more and, and I, she was telling me what’s going on in her life,
et cetera, et cetera, and all the chaos and unsettledness of, oh, okay.
Well, I sent Alan a hundred dollars a month.
I guess I can, I can do Melissa as well because she’s still, she’s maintaining the website.
I maintain many websites, for free, no one pays me a penny but yes that is true I am not in it for the money like all your cheaters and scammers
She’s forwarding his work.
No she is NOT doing good work, she is destroying alan with her poison but you D will never see that as you are a cult member
You know, I’m still doing the transcripts, but I had a little bit of a,um, because I’m like, well, I, I’m not really learning anything extra or
new anymore because Alan’s not doing talks anymore.
You know, it was, it was still the height of COVID. And, and, and, and I’m, I’m grateful that Melissa was around because we could,
we had to go to other websites and other podcasters to figure out what was going on, you know, supply chain breakdown.
Uh, you know, there was Dell big tree and, uh, I can’t even remember all the different people.
And so we could bat things back and forth with each other and see how valid they
were.
So it’s really grateful for them.
And I think, well, okay, I’ll send you a hundred dollars a month as well.
So it’s the, it, it turns into the summer fall of 2021s.
She gets, she finally crosses the border.
Interesting so she left canada late summer fall ..hmmm
And I remember when we were talking about it, this was when I discovered that she was not a Canadian citizen.
And I remember saying to her, well, I said, well, that’s fantastic because as you’re crossing the border, you say, look, I’m an American citizen.
You got to let me through. So, um, so she crosses the border.
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Um, I don’t even remember how she traveled.
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I think it was a bus.
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I can’t recall, but she gets to, gets down to Texas to her parents home.
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I can’t recall,I can’t recall,I can’t recall,I can’t recall,I can’t recall Diana, maybe see a doctor there seems to be something wrong with your brain, every time you have to name a place, data, person or some sort of FACT you have memory loss, please do seek help , there is hope for you
Uh, her, her dad and her brother were there.
Her father was ill.
Her brother was taking care of him.
And so she’s moving in and getting settled.
And at the same time, reuniting with her family and old friends, but also
taking care of her father who was sick.
And so I’m like, wow, that’s a lot to deal with.
So I didn’t call her.
I waited for her to call me.
A good cult member never takes initiative , under any circumstance
I didn’t want to get in the way of, you know, it’s a lot going on.
And so time’s moving on.
It’s still summer fall of 21.
And then she starts telling me about how, uh, the best this woman who has a bit chute channel, who’s been doing Alan Watt videos for years and years
and years and years and years, maybe, I think they were 10 to 15 minute videos.
She would take a clip of Alan, put video to it and post it. And at the time, I think she had 40 or 50,000 subscribers.
Um, and that debess somehow, or Melissa and debess were communicating.
And debess decided to move to Texas to help Melissa.
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the scams really go through the roof now, so children, you see, be as melissa or debess , never go into facts as it will screw you up, like we see here
no, M fetched debess that was her idea, not debess idea
And I was like, that’s great.
And Melissa’s telling, or emailing me, telling me that she’s going to drive
slow down bitch, what is it, email or call , why you lose your memory every five seconds ?
to the East coast, you know, pick up de bests and all of her stuff.
And then they’re going to drive back together.
Question, rational question, why would debess move to texas to do that, does not make sense when you rationally think about it , does that sound normal to you
you can do it remote , why move ? Such questions are never answered
Why you first claim is Joleigh decided to come down to Texas and than suddenly it is Melissa who comes up with the idea and drives to North Carolina, USA to fetch Jo ??
Why these endless twists, obfuscations and inconsistencies, lies
And I was like, wow, you’re really putting a lot on your plate.
exactly and WHY would she do that, that s the obvious question, what is the REASON she does that ? The Agenda
I mean, with all this stuff you’ve got going on and trying to help your father
and reunite and get settled and more and Alan.
I was like, wow, okay, do, do what you’re going to do.
You know, it’s your path.
It’s your life.
So, uh, you know, at times moving on again, more conversations, getting to know each other.
Um, and she’s telling me about the best, what debess had done, all the videos.
And I was, I told her, I said, Melissa, I’m super excited.
Not only am I going to have you, Allen’s woman as a friend, you know, hopefully,
but now there’s Debess.
Girlfriend of very shady nature
My gosh, I’m not just going to have one awake friend, but I’m going to have two awake
friends and they’re both going to be women.
We’re all going to know Allen, what stuff.
And I said to her, I said, Melissa, my gosh, I said, we’ve got you with Allen’s audio.
Debess ( Joleigh) with video or the capacity to make video. And there’s me with the printed word, the transcriptions.
I said, the three of us together are really, we could really kick butt and forward Allen’s work in whatever creative way we’re going to do this.
And Melissa agreed.
We’re both just really excited for what the future held and how we could forward Allen’s
work as, as a group, as a team.
There is NO team, you are a cult member, you slave for guru and never ask a question
end of story
And now time rolls on again and she sent me an email, this is December of 21, that a young man by the name of Kevin, who’s also going, has the name Weston, his public name is Weston, his personal name is Kevin.
I’m like, because the best has an actual real name as well that I won’t divulge here, but so I’m got, I got Bev, Melissa, I got Weston, Kevin, I’ve got Debess with her name joleigh. So as Melissa’s talking to me about these two, instead of two names, I got four names floating around and I’m like, what is, I was like, oh my gosh.
yes very complicated..
Anyway, so Melissa is telling me about Weston.
I don’t know if y’all remember him.
She and Weston did interviews on a show called Dynamic Independence.I think it went on for about a year or so.
Melissa, they’re not on the website anymore.
I’m not really sure why.
well , maybe just …mhmm I dont know , ehmm ….ask ?
I believe I talked to her about it and I think her goal was to obviously propagate Allen’s work and talk about Allen, but also about current events of the day.
And I think it was her way of trying to attract listeners to the cutting through site.
You know, it’s totally reasonable.
She’s also propagating Allen’s work to another audience.
you are skipping the question dear, why did M erase the intereviews ?
And that’s where that’s where I heard Kevin.
Now, I never got to meet Kevin or Debess ever, which always disappointed me.
but you thought nothing of it , obviously, you know as a hmm ” team” ?
I didn’t want to, you know, I think I brought it up to Melissa once or twice.
I said, really, I’d really love to talk to Debes or Kevin.
And I never got to and it always confused me as to why, but that was okay.
I had her for friend.
And I never got to and it always confused me as to why, but that was okay.
I had her for friend. Ya I shut up now …
And again, it’s still in this first year time period where I’m not calling her.
I’m waiting for her to call me.
So we might talk once every four or six or eight weeks.
But we emailed back and forth a lot.
Not a lot of texting.
It was emailing.
So time is moving on.
It’s February 1st.
And I don’t know what I was thinking about her doing.
But I think, you know, I got a lot of us send her a couple of hundred dollars.
You know, she’s got a lot going on.
does she fucking really ? are you SURE , Sherlock ?
ARE YOU SURE
She just did this trip across country.
She didn’t ask for any money.
She didn’t really talk about money.
But I think, you know, let me just send her a couple hundred dollars.
And so she replied saying, thank you so much for the letter and the gift.
It was a blessing.
And she’s saying, you know, if you’re around on Thursday, let’s talk.
And we need to catch up.
So I’m like, okay, cool, right on.
Diana, it seems you do not know what to do with all that money , you can always give us a donation, 20 K would be nice , thank your for listening
A starving webmaster
And then two days later, which was Thursday, I’m thinking I’m going to get a call.
And I got an email.
And the first line, you know, she said, I’ll call you next week.
And I was like, okay, you know, no worries.
But then the next line is that her dad had passed away three and a half weeks ago.
And I was kind of taken aback.
And I remember thinking, wow.
Two days, you could see, you know, this cheerful email, you know, thanks for the money.
And let’s catch up.
It came across very cheerful to me.
And now I’m finding out your dad’s been dead for three and a half weeks.
And I guess in my mind, I had overstepped thinking that we were better friends than I thought.
I was like, wow, I would think I would have heard from you a few days after, maybe after the funeral,
nearly a month later.
And I was, I was, it just kind of hit me wrong.
And I realized, okay, well, I’m not in the foreground of a friendship that I had wished or imagined to be.
She’s got Kevin there. She’s got joleigh there.
That’s where her focus is.
And I realized, okay, I’m on the back burner.
And I was a little disappointed.
Ooooooooooooooooooooooooh
I think when we ultimately talked, I said that to her in some way.
I realized that I’m not, you know, in the foreground, whatever.
And she said, oh, no, Diana, I want you to know that you’re in the inner circle.
And I was like, oh, wow.
Oh my gosh.
Well, that’s awesome.
That’s excellent.
Wow, baby , you made it , blondie, you are Inner Circle now, wow you can soon wash the guru s undies, if you try a bit harder , give it a go , you can do it ..wow..is there nothing you do not believe Diana ? really ?
I was like, wow, made me feel a little better.
And, and so the rest of this email is basically talking about what the family was going through and that she wanted to introduce me to Kevin.
And I never did get to meet him personally. I mean, either on the phone or whatever, or do best not look back and think about it.
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So as we’re getting to know each other now, it’s spring of 22.
It’s a year after Alan passed.
We begin talking about gardening.
And I was telling her that I was using raised bed gardens. And I’ll put a picture up here so y’all can see what kind.
Melissa was talking about keyhole gardening. And this is when the supply chain was breaking down.
We’re all locked in our houses or, you know, the mask business and all that. And we were worried about food stocks and I believe I had started my garden.
Yeah. The spring after Alan died that summer I started it.So this was my second spring.My first year was pretty, pretty sorry, but the second year I did a lot better.
And so we were talking about gardening a lot. She’s telling me who she likes on YouTube, et cetera.So I remember being out in my garden thinking about something that Melissa had told me.
She was telling me a little bit about Alan’s family life as a child. And that his father was not a nice guy and like actually even evil in some way. And that Alan and his father didn’t really, I think they butted ads or something because Alan was so bright. And that his mom tried to buffer things.
He had a couple of sisters.
But Melissa was telling me that, yeah, Alan told her that Alan’s father was a really great gardener.
And that he used to go behind the horse and wagons of the day to collect manure from the horses so that he could put it in his garden.
And that his dad was a great gardener. And I was like, oh, well, that’s awesome.That’s cool because as we’re getting to know each other, we’re both wanting to go.I’m actually gardening.
She’s talking about wanting to get started gardening. You know, so it’s this thing that we could bond over.
And I remember being out in my garden thinking about this story she told me about.
It was about a week later, maybe two.And in that moment as I was thinking about it, I sensed Alan in spirit was about 30 feet away.
And there was another spirit which somehow instinctively I knew it was Alan’s dad. It’s the spirit standing there.
I was putting seedlings in the bed. And the spirit’s like, well, let me show you something. And in my mind, he showed me the maker of trough.
He said, lay the seedling in there and then squish the trough back together. And that way you won’t disturb the roots as much because what I was doing was to dig in a hole, stick it in and do that.
And I was like, oh, my gosh, that’s cool. I guess Alan Melissa was right. His dad was a great gardener or whatever.
I also remembered the aspect of her saying that he was not such a nice guy and that he was evil.And I realized, well, I’m interacting with this and I should not be.
And so I said to it, thanks Alan’s dad or whoever you are. I said, I appreciate that, but you got to go. And in that moment, both of them left.
The whole time Alan’s about 30 feet away and wasn’t really communicating with me.And the whole thing must have lasted for maybe only five minutes.
what sort of BS story is this ?
are you sure you are exposing CTTM , darling ?
But I just thought it was very interesting that when I asked what I perceived as a malevolent spirit to leave, both of them did.Because I was thinking, well, Alan’s a good guy.Why would he have left?Anyway, it confused me.
jee, how odd , has never happened before..
So time’s rolling on.
Melissa is, we’re still talking about gardening because it’s the spring. She says, I got obsessed with container gardens.
She’s looking into keyhole gardening. She’s studying the weather down there, et cetera, et cetera. And we’re just talking about gardening.
So as time’s moving on, I’m thinking, well, you know what? She’s really got a lot going on.
It’s the one-year anniversary of Alan dying in the love of her life. She’s just crossed country with other stuff. She’s not really settled in yet.
She had to take care of her father for months and now he’s passed away. So she’s mourning him, reconnecting with her childhood girlfriends.
She’s got Wes, Kevin, and DeBest there trying to, you know, it’s a lot going on. And so we’re talking about, I thought, you know what?
I think I want to surprise her.I know she hasnt a whole lot of money
????
So I sent her the raised bed, a worm factory, the worms, worm food, amendments for the soil,everything that she would need to get the garden started.
And then once the garden is started, has plants in it, the fertilizers that you would need to maintain the garden.So I sent it as a surprise and that was in the spring and summer of 22.
So time’s rolling on and I start reading St. Augustine.And I’ll be honest with you.
I can’t remember the title of it, but I was talking to her about this.
And so I was reading St. Augustine and then I had run across a paragraph from time to time that just seemed like it was gibberish.
That it confused me because I was keeping up with everything until these weird instances.
And as I’m going over this paragraph two or three or four or five times, going, I’m not stupid.
I’m keeping up with you, dear. What is this? And it suddenly dawned on me.
Oh my gosh.
This is a way for the author to insert demonic influence upon the reader. And I’ve just recently understood from someone else that when that happens in a book that it’s code.
It’s also code for the author. When he’s talking to other people of the occult or secret societies or the mystery schools, that it’s code that they’ll understand.
And I remember having this realization thing at the time I thought, oh, it’s just, it’s like a demonic. It’s like a chant or something to mess with me, the reader.
And I stood back. I doubted myself and I thought, well, surely not.And in that moment, Alan was in spirit form standing at my bedside.
And…did you donate ?
And he said, Diana, trust yourself.
And I went, oh, okay.
Wow.
All right. So I did. And I remember I only went a few more pages in that book.
And I thought, why am I reading this? If this is written by an occultist and he’s sending codes to other occultists.
I put it back on the shelf and never went back to it. I always thought that I should, but I never did.
And so I’m talking to Melissa about this. And I also, after that, I picked up the book Morals and Dogma because I had always wanted to read it.
I was always nervous about the fact that I might not understand it from time to time.
I’d open up a page and go, okay, and put it back. But I thought, you know, okay, I’m going to tackle it.
I’m going to sit down from the beginning and read through it. And I noticed that the same thing happens in Morals and Dogma except this time,
instead of reading it two, three, four, five times trying to figure it out. I just skirted around it and I was able to read the whole book that way.
And so it’s at this point in time, Melissa and I are talking about the supernatural, demonic influence in the world. She’s telling me about going to church with her brother, with her great aunt.
And going to church for, you know, to find some peace and solace when she’s grieving Alan or her father. So I’m thinking that Melissa is, you know, she’s a Christian.
She’s doing the Christian thing. I mean, I don’t know what she did or didn’t do in that regard up in Canada. But here she is in Texas as I’m getting to know her.
I’m feeling like I’m learning a little bit about Christianity and that, yeah, there is a supernatural aspect to it. There is demonic involvement in the world.
There is spiritual warfare going on. And so I’m starting, and yes, in the past, I have had supernatural experiences, very limited. So I had that knowledge, but now I had someone to talk to about that as well. Because there’s not a whole lot of people in the world that you can talk to about supernatural experiences.So time’s moving on.It’s May and she and I are catching up.
We’re talking about gardening again, but this time she’s telling me that it’s going to be this time next year. So she’s already been, Alan’s already been dead for a year.
It’s going to be this time next year before she can get her mom and dad’s things sorted out from their house. And Alan’s things sorted out that she’s still not settled.
And I’m thinking, wow, that’s stressful. You know, you’re in a house and the stuff around you is someone else, you know, your moms, your dads.
I mean, plus all this other stuff, she’s just really stressed out.
Sure she is so “busy” all the time putting her garbage on which nobody watches by the way, just saying
And I, that’s part of why I sent the gardening equipment to her because I thought, you know, you got so much going on.
does she really , can we have facts please, as that was always the excuse of M , Queen bee when I talked to her, oh so busy no time not time
just excuses
The garden can be an escape for you when you get stressed out or you need to get away from the computer.You can go out and put your hands in some soil, your feet in the grass, plants, you know, plant seeds, trim tomato plants, whatever, that it would be an escape for her.And that’s why I did that.And so now it’s the end of May and she’s emailing telling me that she feels like that she’s recovering from a very long illness.I can understand that. She’s had a lot go on for the past year, almost year and a quarter now.
Like what exactly ?
You know, she’s telling me that she’s slept more now than she has in months and then she’s battling someone’s demons.
And I was like, what is that about? I don’t think I really understood at this point in time.
And she’s saying, thank you for the gardening. It’s been helping. So I was relieved and glad that she had that as an escape.
It’s your money. I don’t know what your bank account is. So do what you’re going to do, but I just thought it was kind of on.
So now the summer rolls around and I received a frantic phone call.
Melissa is having a meltdown about DeBess. That DeBess is possessed and Melissa has to deal with her.
And that’s what this battling someone’s demons comment was about earlier.
I was like, oh, really? I said, well, if she’s possessed, I said, you need to disconnect from her.
You need to ask her to leave. You can’t. I said, well, see, you’ve got so much going on. This is the last thing you need.
And Melissa’s like, no, she wants to help DeBess and mention that they had had an appointment with a pastor at her church or a church.
I don’t recall.
are you sure she wants to ” help” Joleigh ? 🙂
And then DeBess admitted that she was possessed, but that she didn’t want to remedy the situation.
oh, is that how it works, M fetches Debess , kidnap almost , and now it is all Debess fault ?
wow, storyline changes fast..
And I’m like, well, all the more reason to ask her to leave.
She’s openly admitting this to you. You know, how are you going to fix her? Because at the time I didn’t know about Deliverance Ministry. All I had read about was Malachi Martin doing,
talking about in the book, Hostage to the Devil, about exorcism. Something, oh, you know, she doesn’t want to fix this. Even an exorcism can’t change it if you knowingly, willingly want to be possessed.Anyway, this goes on for weeks. Melissa’s super stressed out about it, telling me about it. I think we start talking maybe, I’m thinking maybe twice a month, once every couple of weeks.
So like I said, our correspondences were mostly through email.But I think also at this point, text started to be introduced. I think Melissa was getting used to texting if memory serves.
if memory serves..
So time’s moving on. It’s the end of May. And she’s telling me that she didn’t get enough sleep.This is kind of a recurrent thing that she can’t sleep. She doesn’t sleep well.
That she’s going to church with her brother. She’s helping to not necessarily take care of her brother,but she’s the one that cooks the meals, cleans the house, whatever, because they share a house together.So time’s moving on. It’s the end of May. And she’s telling me that she didn’t get enough sleep.This is kind of a recurrent thing that she can’t sleep. She doesn’t sleep well.
we do see Diana does an awful lot of editing her material for publishing, why is that Diana ? could you please explain this excessive editing, why not just tell your story , why you have to edit it thousand times, never mind , feck off
That she’s going to church with her brother. She’s helping to not necessarily take care of her brother,but she’s the one that cooks the meals, cleans the house, whatever, because they share a house together.as you can see this is an edit error, so why does diana edit her vidoes, talks so intensely ….leave that to your imagination..And that she spent a holiday afternoon with some old childhood girlfriends who are quote unquote awake, but not at all, she says.And here’s what she’s fascinating stuff that JFK’s not dead.Everybody famous as a clone, ritual child sacrifice under the Vatican, adrenochrome harvesting,peyote to break the ego and find God and everything is a vibration, Melissa says, I could go on and on.
So I’m just kind of reading this, you know, I’m thinking, okay, well, at least you have a sense of humor there. That’s great.And at the end of this email, she talks about having to work through her anger at the best months of life battling her demons,produces all her blackmailing behavior that debess felt that Melissa should be paying her.
And so Melissa suggests that debess monetize her channel.
Can we please expand on that topic, of course not , you never ask questions
And so Debess did. But now Melissa’s talking about how the best is using Alan watt images and positioning herself to look like the official site.And I’m like, well, that’s ridiculous because the official site is such a unique look.
what a load of BS
It’s 25 years old.
I don’t know that anyone could position themselves to be the official site because anyone who knows Alan watt knows his site.But I guess for maybe new people, I don’t know.
But so Melissa’s really freaked out.And she’s talking about how she feels that on the spiritual battlefield that debess is a goner.
I think you are all goners
And that Melissa’s realized that she was wrapped up in her own ego thinking that she could show the best the errors of the best’s mind and lead debess to true communion with her creator.
And I’m like, wow, that’s not really your job.But okay, I guess.So that’s what Melissa was all wrapped up in there.And so now it’s June 4th.
And she’s talking about going to the crimes against humanity, something and okay, things are moving along.Her and Kevin are going to this conference.
You know, she’s talking a little bit about gardening.I’m like, okay, great, awesome.It’s the next day, July 5th.And now it’s the next day.She’s a very cheerful.
It’s the next day, frankly, at a very low point just now, and I’m likely overtired and pushing for a year and a half.And, you know, and that she can’t sleep, but she’s, you know, she’s grateful.
She’s got the garden as an escape.And she says that they haven’t progressed any further on the books.Now, what this is is Melissa has decided to take the cutting through books, volume one, two and three, and rework them and put them instead of being black and white, they’re going to be color.And also, in order to not violate, I’m not sure if it’s copyright or trademark.I haven’t sort of thought my head yet, but basically it’s where you take the images of something and change it just enough so it can’t be, it’s not exactly like the original.
bla bla bla , screwing over, scamming the public with the stolen work of Glen Kealy from Canada, that is a FACT
And then she’s going to publish it and have it, either the trademark or the copyright in her name, so that she now owns it and can sell it and live on that.Because I think that’s a bulk of what she lives on in the sales of the books.So she said they haven’t progressed any further and she’s having a call with the designers.So I go, okay, wow, that’s exciting.So now I get another call.
It’s a summer into the fall and Melissa is calling me several times a week, which is very unlike her.
I don’t get that much communication, direct phone calls, but now I am over the fact that she’s looking at Debess.
So Debess is now left and gone.
oh la la , the plot thickens
And so Melissa is now monitoring Debesse sites daily to see what’s going on.And I said, Melissa, you need to let this go.She tells me the place to look on Debesse sites for doxing Melissa.
eh , correction, no , why did debess leave ? what were the reasons for her long stay ? Melissa doxxed herself, as she took down several websites , for example alanwattarchive.com, that is a FACT
So she ” doxxed” herself as she is just a dumb clown like you , an idiot, a total fuckup, no brains.
Melissa send the company the files , for takedown for copyright DMCA , but our lady Diana is so stupid she still does not grasp it, good grief
FACTS not conspiracy or slander or rumour or hearsay
FACTS
And I’m busy with the transcripts.There, you know, I’m still doing the four or five hour shows at the end there.It takes literally an entire week for me to transcribe one show and I’ve got 20 or 30 to go.And so I’m like, I’m not going to do this.You know, I think I pulled it up and looked here and there and didn’t find anything.And it didn’t seem important to me, but Melissa was just obsessed with filing copyright infringement on Debesse sites and forbidding her to post anything, Alan, what?And I was like, Melissa, come on, Debesse has been doing this for years and years and years and years.Now you’re just going to cut her off.And Melissa, oh, she’s positioning herself to look like they’ve done it.I was like, okay, you dealt with her.
You interacted with her.I don’t know anything that went on there other than what you told me, but I just remember thinking that’s, that’s, I’m sure Debesse felt it, you know, after doing that for years and years and years.And what I realized was,I, at the time in the summer fall of 2022, I did not look for these things on the internet because I just, it was, I didn’t think it was necessary.
?????????????????
I thought Melissa was obsessing where she didn’t need to.
CULT MEMBER CANNOT THINK
My opinion was, well, if these people are going to believe her, they obviously don’t have enough discernment and why, you know, let them wallow in their own crap together as a group kind of thing.
YOU HAVE NO OPINION YOUR GURU THINKS FOR YOU
There’s nothing you can do to stop it.
So I just this past spring of 2025, three years after the fact, I thought, you know, why don’t I check into that whole Debesse business and see what was going on back then.
Now I looked on Bitshoot and I couldn’t find anything.And one day it occurred, well, I’m going to look on YouTube or Odyssey or Rumble and see if there’s anything Debesse has put out there.
And I did find something.
which day was that, dear ? Lost memory again ? oh the day you stole our material, files, videos and passed the off as your own , you know they are ours but you refuse to communicate with us D, you fecking SHILL
I found Debesse’s comments talking back and forth with other people.
Now these are not posted by Debesse.
They’re posted by someone else
oh dear oh dear oh dear, yes that is us , dumbass but you know that but you avoid us like that plague we know all about you D, you are just a cult victim and a liar yourself, we contacted you Diana, it was through a tip of frau Regine from Germany , she found that out about you and debess , it was not me this time, she put me on a lead, so I did send you all the relevant documentation and evidence, but you conveniently ignore/hide that fact and now make it look like you came up with ideas, you are too brainwashed to come up with anything D, and you are just a cunning snake , like the rest, ignoring facts, you avoid us like that plague, even in that silly FB group, alan watt memorial, run by that fecking SHILL David, you avoid us like the plague, I find that behavior very telling…besides all the other clowns do the same, so why is everybody , desperately , trying to avoid any public communication, well well well …
No scammers, M did not buy into it , she is playing stupid games with you , imbecile, she knows exactly what she is doing, unlike you
she is screwing you over and knows if you go into bed with jon her days are numbers, she will lose her lackey , her obedient slave, that is the reason she wants to push you away from jon, you dumb clown, stop screwing the public over. You dont have to bring up the topic in many future sessions, the thing is as clear as ice any nitwit can understand what is going on, jon is a threat as he will break the Spell, duhhhhhhhhh
Correction : YOU have NO friends
Maybe open the the comments, we can have a good laugh …
But they took screenshots of what Debesse was communicating with other people and made little videos and put it on this channel.
Diana, shut up, you KNOW it was us, as we gave you info about it, so do not pretend you do not know us, so you hide from the public, like the rest, only talk at us not to us, that says enough.
And here’s the channel.And so here are some of the communications between Debesse and other people from this time period of summer fall 2022.So authentic intelligence is saying, Debesse,
did you actually get to meet Alan? What a great mind.I’m still mourning his passing.
He made so much sense of this crazy world and why it is so.
I really do not think he died of natural causes, considering he was ripping the pandemic to shreds with four hour blurbs at the end there.
I still listen to him regularly.
I have a lot of files downloaded.
And so Debesse replies and says, I never physically met Alan.
However, we communicated for many years the email, letters and phone calls as the pandemic started.
He also put me on his RBN broadcasts.
Alan was killed in my opinion.
I read that.
I was like, what?
Wow.
Just as the pandemic began to roll out, Alan began calling me at home just before this happened.
God bless this man and curse those who are profiting and who I believe contributed to his death.
And so I’m like, well, who do you think that is?
Because the only person you’ve really interacted with was Melissa and Kevin.
And Kevin wasn’t there. Melissa was.
hint hint
So I’m starting, I’m like, okay, well, Debesse thinks something.
I don’t know if I agree or not.
you cannot think , get over it
So I moved down to the next one.
Debesse is responding to a person called obsolete.
She says, don’t worry, I won’t block you because you bring up pertinent points.
It’s a tediously long story.
I worked with Melissa and Kevin for free and drove from North Carolina to Texas with Melissa.
She came to my house in North Carolina and we drove back in my car because I was devastated to hear of Alan Watts untimely death.
Alan phoned me a few months before he was killed.
Ask Melissa, a Seventh Day Adventist follower, then listen to Bill Cooper about the Seventh Day Adventist cult.
Then get back with me on this topic.
I do not wish to promote cutting through the matrix because Alan Watts, two elderly sisters, held the legal rights to his websites.
Melissa worked for a big name Jewish Hollywood producer, Gary Barber, for many years as his secretary before infiltrating and eventually taking over the cutting through website.
Alan cutting through website.Alan had two sisters, one younger than him and the other one older, who had the legal rights to his cutting through site.
But Melissa stated that they were greedy and that they wouldn’t know what to do with it.
if melissa says she makes pink farts do you believe that too ?
Now, when I first saw this and read this, I was taken aback because Melissa had told me that she was an editor for writers in Hollywood,not a secretary for a big name Jewish Hollywood producer.That was the first thing that really struck me.
Now, I had known about, Melissa had told me about this court battle between herself and Alan’s two elderly sisters.
So that didn’t surprise me.But I was, I got stuck here for a minute going, well, wait a minute.
Okay, so now debess is told one thing.
I’m told the other.
it starts to click , wait a few years it will click
Okay, well, let me continue to see what else there is.She continues with this same, same, same response here to the same person.
I live with Kevin.He was a tenant in my cockroach laden trailer in Keen, Texas.
By the way, Kevin was diagnosed with autism.
So he is brilliant in one sphere, math, but easily manipulated overall.
He is an idiot savant legally blind.
How do I know all of this?
Kevin lived with me in this rundown trailer in my name in Texas.
What a fool I was to drive in my car with Melissa, who arrived at my comfy apartment in Raleigh, North Carolina.
Watt called on my home landline phone a few months before he was killed?
Alan instinctively knew that his days were numbered.
Anyway, I produced and uploaded many cutting through vids here on Bitshoot, many of which I have since deleted because I truly wish to promote Alan’s legacy.
There’s so much more I could say.
What else do you wish to know since I’m spilling my guts out?
Alan is, was the real deal and I respect his work all ways.
However, I cannot climb on board to this ulterior Hollywood manipulative involving donations and money making only because Melissa never married.
And as per her confession to me personally, she intentionally aborted her child with this guy because he was going out with other women.
Shame.
So I was a little shocked here too because Melissa told me that she was married.
And the fact that these people are so convinced that Alan was killed.That was another thing that kind of took me back.
I, this is three months ago, not three years ago.
So I’m like thinking, well, wow, okay.
Melissa was not honest or sincere with me, at least about her job.
shocker no , the guru lied to you , oh my goodness, call Houston , now !!!
She did tell me about the court case, but I’m like, wow, why would Melissa do that?
So I’m continuing to look at these things on this channel.
So this is Debes responding to the, this person called the age of irony.
He says, still miss Alan, I hope he’s enjoying life in paradise.
He was an excellent teacher.
Debes says, yes, and Alan started calling me at home six months or so before he was murdered.
We communicated via emails and letters for many, many years before that. Too bad that Melissa, MK ultra asset, quickly had Alan’s body cremated rather than respecting his wishes to be buried next to Hamish, his dog. I know too much and worked for free for cutting through the matrix.I even relocated to Texas five miles from her and her seventh day Adventist brother where she located after Alan’s death. There’s so much more I could say here, but won’t.
yes Debess , mrs Joleigh F, why not just throw it all out , what is holding you back, afraid things may come back at you ?
This is why I quit uploading my produced Alan what vids because he did not die in the manner that she has described to his audience.
He was murdered.
if you are so convinced, you little shill Debess, Alan was murdered than why did you work for CTTM HAHAHAH you fecking faker
So she’s pretty convinced.
And I’m going, wow, okay.
I, again, I don’t know.
I don’t have any evidence opinion about it really, but she was there with Melissa.
I think for a year or a year and a half.
So now Debes is responding to a person called a loop J.
Debes is no worries.
A loop J.
And thanks for your reply.
I worked face to face with Melissa in Texas where she lives with her brother for about 18 months and her sidekick Kevin.
I know too much.
Alan’s two sisters have the legal rights to his website, not Melissa, who was never legally married to Alan.
Alan was never married and has no children.
He had a black belt and karate was on zero meds and was in good health.
many lies debess , one day it will catch up with you, karma
She, Melissa, called me at my home in North Carolina.
At the time, a few days after Alan’s death, she actually rented a car and drove to my place.
??????????????????????? So we can clearly see they all are liars, all of them.
We drove back together in my car to Texas where I worked with her in uploading producing the weekly Alan want blurbs.
Debess you are a liar, top cheater, piece of crap , you are very qualified to work for CTTM , you are a psycho, like the rest there.
I also proofread her weekly writings.I have a background in journalism with a master’s degree plus clinical work in hospitals.Alan also wished to be buried beside Hamish’s big black dog in the backyard.I asked her why she didn’t honor his wishes.I never got a straight answer on that question.And I began to understand and realize that there is much more to the story of Alan’s death than we have been told.I could say a lot more, but I can’t here.
Alan kept every letter I wrote to him, according to Melissa.He began calling me at home shortly before the pandemic, always when Melissa was outdoors.
hint hint..if that is so , dear Joleigh, could you maybe say what you talked about ? might be interesting , are you all part of this
in other words, is his one big fat psyop we are seeing here
I’m not sure exactly what the relationship was except to say that she left her family, her brother and her great aunt in Texas,
and took a bus to Sudbury, Ontario, where Alan picked her up in his car,
which she had shipped down to Texas as it is an antique that Alan did all of the mechanical work on.
why is hat car so important , that old warwagon, would love to know
To her credit, Melissa arranged and got Alan some high profile interviews, Alex Jones, coast to coast,
but also remember that she had worked for Gary Barber, a top Zionist producer in Hollywood,
and so she knows how to manipulate people to get whatever is needed.
and you are a saint , is that wat you are saying ?
I have no ill feelings towards her now. All of that is behind me, however.
Melissa will have to live with what she has done and what she is doing under the guise of preserving slash carrying on Alan’s work.
If she truly wished to carry on Alan’s work, then she would not have filed copyright strikes on so many folks
who were re-uploading Alan’s work and not linking to the cutting through websites.
Melissa is all about making money and supporting herself because she did not work enough to earn any social security,
has no children, and she divorced the man that she was married to for a very short time.
I could say a lot more, but won’t, God bless.
So here’s the next one where Debes is talking to a loop jay again.
No worries, I’m with you on this, but I was unable to comprehend the complicity and evil involved at the time.
After I saw what she was and still is, it makes sense.
A Canadian friend of mine says he thinks she was sent there on a mission to do what eventually happened to Alan.
According to her, Alan died in front of his computer screen.
And I just stopped right there when I read that and I went, wait a minute.
Melissa told me he died next to the bed with her asleep in bed, next to the bed reaching for a book.
So I’m like, wow, okay, so now we’ve got two jobs and two ways Alan died.Let me see what else is said.
According to her, he died in front of his computer screen after she retired for the evening and was awakened when she heard his body hit the floor.
What was the cause of death?
We will never know because no autopsy was done.
She cremated his body and has some of his ashes in an urn.
let s not go into conspiracy mode here, children, I am sure there is no foul play at hand…
So a few months ago, I’m looking at this going, oh my gosh, Melissa, in these two regards was not sincere or honest, either with me or with debess.
eh or with both ?
But either way, there’s a lie here somewhere.
wow , no shit ?
So I’m moving forward to see what else is here.
So the best, here’s Seamus Oshogru.
Yeah, I posted a lot of Alan’s talks and bitched as well as my Facebook and never received any flak.
I did receive an email from Melissa about a year after Alan’s death telling me of her marriage to Alan and what had transpired.
I have no reason to not believe her or what she had experienced being married to Alan and doing whatever.
debess replies, Melissa and Alan were never married.
You are being lied to.
Alan was never married.
oh, it that so ? I beg to differ..jackie and alan repeatedly stated he was married in the late nineties and yes JOe in the below comment is our lovely Joleigh
No Longer Listening to Alan Watt…
Since I found the source of Alan Watt’s material, his books and basic ideas I haven’t listened to any more Alan Watt. I was growing weary as he promised to be giving us streaming consciousness and he now reads scripts. Mostly reading articles posted by others and written by others which it turns out is his modus op, using other people’s work.
Glen Kealey is the true source of Alan Watt. I also think Glen Kealey is the source of Lenny Bloom and David Icke, IMHO. I noticed Lenny Bloom website is down and its most likely because his sculpter image is lifted from Glen Kealey along with his tag line of “scrapping the bullshit off the truth” is a variation of Glen Kealey’s tag line as is Alan Watt’s tag line also lifted from Glen Kealey.
David Icke of course is another preverted disinfo distraction designed to cover up the real facts presented by Glen Kealey.
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His two sisters have the legal rights to the cutting through website.
However, Melissa is paying big money to a law firm to make sure that Alan’s two sisters do not acquire the legal rights to his work.
Please look into some of my recent posts about all of this, all the best and best.So now I’m getting another inconsistency because, again, Melissa had told me about this legal battle,
but she gave me the impression that her lawyers and the law firm she was using were mediocre at best, literally.And now I’m finding out from Debess, well, no, she’s paying them big money.
Now, how Debess knows that? I don’t know. I can only assume that conversations she and Melissa had.
But so now I’m like, okay, now there’s three inconsistencies.
Okay.
And so now Debess is, I’m not sure who she’s responding to here.
She said she lied to you.
First off, Melissa and Alan were never married, although she was married previously.
I worked for free for her and relocated to Texas for one and a half years.
I know her and I know her family and her acquaintances.
I understand completely where you are coming from.
Please know, though, that you are complicit if you and there’s nothing more there after that.
So I’m like, okay, I don’t know what’s going on there.
And so now Debess is responding to a person called the new Brunswicker.
He says, I’ve been reviewing Alan’s work again on your channel today lately.
Thank you. I have no reason to lie about this.
She, real name Melissa Reed, started blocking the Alan Watt vids I posted on Debess after I left her in Texas
and came back to North Carolina where I currently live.
She also took down an excellent Bitchutechannel, Alan Watt Archive,
who can be found at https forward slash forward slash archive dot org slash details slash Alan Watt Archive.
Debess says, why would you do this if you were truly interested in folks learning the truth?
She worked in Hollywood for many years. Her boss was Zionist Gary Barber.
I know all of this because she told me all this.
Melissa, I know you have your shills and your own fake Bitshoot channel.Please help me understand why you were complicit in Alan’s death.No autopsy? Why not?Is there something that you are trying to hide? Now, I, as I’m going over this, I’m thinking, okay, up until this point in time,
and what are YOU hiding, Joleigh ?
Melissa’s telling me that Debess is possessed on the spiritual battlefield.
She’s a goner.
She knows she’s in midst.
She’s possessed.
Doesn’t want to get, and I’m reading this thinking, well, Debess sounds pretty reasonable and rational to me here.
But again, demons can sound reasonable and rational.
tell us all about it Diana..
But, and I thought, well, okay, Debess shows showing me three very distinct inconsistencies with Melissa.
Her job, where Alan died, and this law firm business.
So this is three months ago.
Now, I’m going to take you back, and this is what Melissa is melting down about three years ago,
that I did not take the time to look into.
And Melissa’s calling me and obsessing on Debess, and as long as Debess was there and helping her,
Debess could post whatever she wanted, but now Debess is gone,
and now Melissa has forbade her to post anything.
And I believe Debess’s channel got, if not deleted, a lot of strikes, and Debess had to remove Alan’s stuff.
I know that at that point she had 40 or 50,000 subscribers, and if you look at her channel now,
it’s only like 30,000 subscribers.
So it’s my thought that her channel was deleted, and she rebuilt it and built her subscriptions up again.
I could be wrong, just a guess.
So, I was just kind of taken aback when I saw this three months ago.
I’m like, wow, this is really enlightening.
But three years ago, I had no clue.
you knew but did not give a shit
So as I’m naively going along, it’s this summer, I’m naively going along,
exactly
desperate for a friendship with Melissa, waiting for her to call,
because when I call there, there’s never a pickup.
It always goes to voicemail.
The only time I really communicate is through email, which could be two, three times a week.
Text maybe once or twice a week.
But it’s nice to talk to a human voice.
I’m thinking she’s my friend.
YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS
I know she’s still got West in there.
Debess is gone, although she’s calling me to have these meltdowns.
So I’m desperate for a friendship with her.
I have to wait for her to call me.
drooling , twitching, excited, the voice of my guru
I hear her telling me that she’s sick and run down all the time under attack.
She’s stalking Debess and Debess’ sites
I thought, you know, you’re sick all the time.
You’re obsessing on things that don’t matter.
You can’t sleep, et cetera, et cetera.
You probably got cramped inside that you need to deal with, right?
And I remembered something that Alan had said quite a few times.
And I said to her, I said, you know, Melissa,
Alan and I said that we should work on ourselves first.
And that’s just how I said it.
And I believe it was in the context of, why don’t you drop dynamic independence?
Why don’t you stop writing your not-sure article?
You know, give yourself a minute to catch your breath, get settled into your house, et cetera.
And so I said, you know, Alan and I said we should work on ourselves first.
And her reply was, not for us.
And she said it just like that with the emphasis on the word us.
Not for us.
And I was really taken aback.
This was a phone call.
I remember us standing in my bedroom.
And I just kind of stopped in the doorway.
I think I was on the way out.
I just kind of stopped and went, wow, okay.
I thought, what an ego.
I mean, everybody’s got stuff they need to handle.
Whether it’s shadow work or psychological work or whatever.
It didn’t even matter because what she needed to stop and do was organize her life,
move her parents’ crap out of her house, and move her and Alan’s stuff in.
But she never took the time to do that.
She was just obsessing on Joleigh and getting a website,” notsure article” in this interview and that interview.
And I was like, Melissa, Alan said we should work on ourselves first,whether that’s organizing your home or whatever.
I’m sure people will understand if you only put up a redux once a week,but not for us.
And the implication was that, oh, no, her and Alan have this mission, this purpose.
No, no, not for us.
I was like, oh, wow, okay.
So that was my first real inkling of a little bit of an ego going on there.
a little bit ??? she is a fecking psycho cult leader , that is Obvious
I just, well, I let it go.
It’s your world.
It’s your life.
You do what you’re going to do.
So now it’s the summer.
It’s July 5th.
She’s happy after Independence Day.
And frankly, I’m just at a very low point.
I’m overtired.
I’ve been pushing for a year and a half.
And I’m going, yeah, Melissa, I know, and you don’t need to.
But she was.
Haven’t progressed further on the books still.
She’s got to call the designer, you know, for the remaking of the cutting through books.
And so in between contact with her, I’m thinking, well, okay,
she’s telling me over and over and over.
She can’t sleep.
She’s not sleeping well.
She’s sick and run down all the time.
I thought, oh my gosh, she told me that her bed was right next to her computer and her modem.
I thought, why don’t I send her a Faraday cage?
She can at least have some protection around the modem until she can move her bed away or whatever she’s going to do.
Maybe that will help.
Maybe she won’t be so tired all the time or sick and run down and all that.
So I sent her a Faraday cage.
It was September 2nd.
And so now it’s the end of September.
And I get this email from her.
She’s responding.
I was telling her something about my family and I was asking her, how are you feeling?
Because she was sick again.
So I do feel better.
And she’s telling me that she’s having this nagging feeling that she wasn’t doing enough.
Right?
We get the reduxes, the not sure, the dynamic independence.
I think she was doing a couple other things.
But she’s this nagging feeling that she wasn’t doing enough and that she feels as though Alan is breaking her down.
I have this feeling like Alan is breaking me down to ready me for whatever comes next.
She says she didn’t want to get too woo-woo about it, but she feels like she’s being pushed to do something else in quotes.
And I’m like, are you kidding me?
You’re not sleeping.
You’re sick and run down all the time.
You’re not even moved in.
You won’t take the time for yourself to work on yourself and you’re going to add more to the mix that someone or something is pushing you to do more, that they’re breaking you down.
I’m like, you’re really not taking care of yourself, Melissa, but I didn’t say anything.
So all through this time, Melissa is talking about being sick and run down and that, you know, she needs money.
She’s not earning money.
is that so ?? she refused the stipend recently so no she is not in financial trouble, you only believe that because she told you so
she clearly is not worried about money
The donations aren’t what they were when she was with Alan.
And I’m like, well, Melissa, no one knows you exist.
So what are they going to donate to?
Right?
So this is what happened next.
Fortitude.
Her video introducing herself to the listeners.
So this is what’s September.
So it’s a good year and a half after Alan died.
And I was glad she did it.
just a little side note here, children, so we see Debess does exactly the same as Diana, steal our work, not asking permission, and puts it up as her own
seems to be contagious behavior …just coincidence…surely….there is NO dialogue, etc, so we see exactly the same behavioral patterns emerge…over and over again.
Of course after I started questioning the role of Debess, also her long stay in Texas with the cult, the door was slammed and all was blocked again..the usual MO.
She sent me the audio that she recorded first.
I listened to it.
I thought it was beautiful.
And then she posted it and I was able to see the video.
So first thing Melissa did right out the gate.
And I kind of bit my lip.
She introduced herself as Alan’s wife.
oh no , drama !!!
And I was like, I don’t know if you should do that.
I mean, it’s not true.
You lived as his wife, sure, but you weren’t his wife.
I never said anything to her, but, you know, I got to thinking about it.
yes , of course you never say why the fuck you claim to be alan watt s wife ? as that is what any normal person would have done and break off contact immediately , duhhh
I’m like, not only were you not his wife, but you were living up there under an assumed name as an illegal alien because that’s what Alan wanted you to do.
I was like, I don’t know, but I thought it’s your world.
It’s your life.It’s your business.You’re going to do what you want.
So I, as I said, she had sent me the audio first.I thought it was beautiful.
And then I watched it when she posted it.And so I sent her an email.
I said, just wanted to let you know I saw the video and the word that comes to mind now is beautiful.
beautiful ….
When I just listened to the audio, the word that came to mind was perfect.
You didn’t need to do anything else.
It was just perfect.
But after watching the video, all I can think of is beautiful.
Everything was presented very beautifully.
Thank you so much for the pictures of where she and Alan lived.
I said, and surprise, surprise.
I didn’t know I was going to get to see you because all this time, all this communication and getting to know each other, I didn’t know what she looked like.
She didn’t know what I looked like.
We never zoomed.
We never FaceTime.
It was always an email, a text or, you know, a phone call, which is fine.That’s the way the world ran before cell phones and all that.
But, you know, so I was just telling her, and I said, so that was very nice.
sound very believable..
Hello.
Nice to meet you.
I finally get to see you.
And so that was just giving her feedback about the fortitude video.
So now it’s October and Melissa is sick again, except this time now we have food poisoning.
It’s very violent and painful.
You know, any effort, you know, just exhausted her.
And so now we have another big attack from Debess / Joleigh F.
There’s libel and defamation and that Melissa conveniently had him cremated.
I mean, y’all heard the comments Debess made.
And several other comments of similar nature to defame me.
I’ve reported this as harassment under bitchute community guidelines and says two days later and still up there.
so it was you , you freak in texas taking that all down, does not surprise us but thanks for confirming
And she says, what’s amazing about the sick or possessed woman is that she seems to have forgotten that Melissa has a stack of emails begging Melissa to not give up on Debess.
And DeBest is abuses, but and to help DeBest find clergy to fight the evil in her and all that.
And I’m like, wow, are you kidding me?
I was just o glad that I didn’t get in the middle or the mix of this, but I have to receive all this venting from Melissa.
She’s sick and tired and she’s Alan’s pushing her to do more.And, you know, all this stuff she’s got going on, Alan’s dead, her dad’s dead.
She’s still not moved in.
but she could have, easily, just keep the sites going, happens by itself , in other words she does not have to do anything
and all this money making BS is what it is BS, she is not interested in money , that is a cop out , a decoy, a distraction from something more sinister,this it bigger than just that
as she refused stipend of the family so money is NOT the root cause of her behavior, duhhhhhhhh
You know, and I’m like, wow, you know, you got a whole lot of chaos going in your life and you choose not to do anything about it.
I’m, you know, I’m sent you the Faraday cage.I’m hoping that does something.But still, anyway, so time is rolling on.
So she’s done fortitude and posted it and that was September.
And so now it’s January and I get a call from Melissa telling me about a microphone that was great for podcasters.
It’s called a Yeti and it’s the best out there.
So I’m getting this rock in my gut.
Now, did she say to me, Dianna, will you buy this for me?
No, but she’s doing it in any and every way.
She, oh, it’s just awesome and I can’t afford to get it and I wish I could get it and Yeti, Yeti, Yeti.
Yes, I’m getting this rock and I got going.
Okay.
All right.
You.
Okay.
You did your fortitude is beautiful.
You need to advance Alan’s work and you want to interview people.
She told me that.
Okay.
I bit the bullet.
I felt like I had Alan in my ear.
I didn’t feel.
I literally felt like Alan was saying, Dianna, help her, help her, help her.
I need a new microphone for future podcast too, dear, can you help us out ,please thank you , regard, the webmaster, look Alan is whispering now , in your ear diana, help the webmaster, buy him a new microphone, it is so appreciated 🙂 what a load of shite
She needs help, help her, help her, help her.
And because Alan put her in this situation, I felt like I am your friend.
Okay.
So I sent it, right?
Diana, I hear alan in my ear now, he says Diana, send the webmaster a new computer, we need this to ” expose” CTTM, hop hop Diana and make sure it s an expensive one, with a service contract, because god Alan wants it so
So the next thing that happens is that she debuts real history, January 19th.
And I think about this in her first real history was her talking about a cross country trip.
Now, this wasn’t even the cross country trip that she did to go pick up to Bess and bring her back to Texas.
This was a second cross country trip.
I don’t even remember what it was about, but I remember listening to this real history going,
really, you just called me because you needn’t wanted a yeti.
Did you ask for it?
No, but you kind of implied it.
I bit the bullet and bought it for you.
And now I find out you’re driving cross country again.
Oh, okay.Wow.And, you know, I kind of brushed it out of my mind.Okay.
I’m not going to say anything, whatever.But it’s just really, I just remember thinking that, listen, going, oh, wow, okay.So then time rolls out and it’s February and she asked if she wanted to interview me as the transcriber of Alan’s talks.It was real history number four.And she interviewed me three times over the course of three years.Each one was in February of 2023, 2024, 2025.And I will say that all three of these videos are now memory whole.I’m not really sure why she took them off the website.
oh come on, you are a traitor now to the cult, a non believer in her majesty s glory , you weakling
maybe you could just hmm ask her ? What a ridiculous thought .. 🙂
She said all of them got great feedback.I had them on my website.I have video channels, YouTube, Bitshoot and Rumble.But I have a website that’s dedicated to helping people heal.
And I put it on there as a way for people to get to know me because Melissa interviewed me.And Melissa had my website attacked.
so evil does turn on itself, also good to know, hyenas tearing each other apart, was about time..
The website that’s there to help people, not just, well, I’ll get into what my website does down the road.But I was really shocked that Melissa would attack a website that is there and designed to help people heal from trauma.It was pulled for a little while.I don’t even look at my own website because I’m busy.I’m not in it for money or views or traffic.
well what are you in for than , certainly not truth , so , what is it , come on , lift the veil a bit
Just if five or 10 or 100 people go there and learn something, I’m happy for that.But Melissa attacked my website, had it shut down.
When I finally figured it out after a couple of weeks, it took a day, literally, to have it put back up.But what it was was Melissa forbidding me posting interviews of myself.
It’s like, wow, okay.So if anyone would like to ever see these, I have them in my hard drive here and I could send you a copy through wetransfer.
are you not wondering no , does your brain not tick properly ?
But the reason I bring this up in real history number for the transcriber, I talk about why my history of my life, why I transcribed,and what happened to me when I first found Alan Watt and watched his first video reality check number one.And these are the timestamps on the video where I talk about this, that I was in an altered state for two weeks.After I watched this video, I was literally in an altered state for two weeks.I remember the walls and the floors did not feel solid.I could still go about my day and do things, but I just did not feel like I was in my body.And when I was in my body, I felt like the world wasn’t solid.That went on for about two weeks and then things settled down.Now, I also talk about being awakened psychically after watching Alan’s video reality check one.And that after that, I had also had conversations with Alan for weeks.Now, this wasn’t all day long every day.
It was as I was in my cleaning house or out in the garden doing something, or it was generally when I was in my house or my garden.But I would be thinking about life and different things that had happened in my life.And I’d say, oh my gosh, Alan, is that what was going on with X, Y, and Z?And blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, was the thoughts I was having.
And I didn’t really get a conversation back.But I felt as though Alan was with me and listening to me and guiding me in my thoughts.And like I said, this might have happened two, three, four times a week.It might have gone on for an hour or two at a time.And it went on for a couple of months.So I’m in an altered state for two weeks.
Then I’m awakened psychically.I remember feeling as though Alan was communicating to me with various different things in my environment.And I even wrote him a letter asking him and he said, no.And that I’m having conversations with Alan for weeks.And that as I’m talking to Melissa about the transcription booklets that I thought of,I told her it wasn’t me that thought of it.I’m sitting here at my desk and all of a sudden Alan is standing right here next to me in spirit form.
And ? Did he ask for a donation ?
And he had a piece of paper in landscape position.
He says, here’s your paper, right?
right..
He’s folded in half and he says, there’s your book.He said, fold it in half again. You got the long strip.He says, look what I can do with it. I can tuck it up my sleeve.He says, I can take that long strip, fold that in half and I can tuck that in my boot.He said, it was for the transcription booklets.
🙂 a true genius ..
Now my idea for it was for Melissa to be able to sell something to make money so that she wouldn’t be calling me about Yeti’s, et cetera, right?I’m already giving you $100 a month.
so what you are saying is , you know, at this stage melissa is screwing you over, you admit to that, but you dont like it, so you prefer if she screw over the public, so you dont have to be screwed over again and again, that is what you are saying, dear
Anyway, but as Alan’s telling me this, I’m literally right here.And I’m getting the impression, he says, well, down the road in the future there’s going to come a point in time where this information might be illegal and that we might not even be able to have access to the internet.And I’m thinking, well, I don’t know about all of that, but I just wanted Melissa to have a way to make, earn money.
me me me ,you could ask her what she wants ?
And so that’s what it was.
oh really ?
And that, and at the hour seven minute, Melissa and I are talking about the good angel Alan because he’s standing here showing me the book.
He’s standing at my bedside telling me to trust myself about demonic influence in writings and books.
He’s, you know, in various places.So we’re talking about that he’s a good spirit.And so that’s what I wanted to point out about that reality check one.Now, at this point in my life, I was being drawn to Christianity.Now, as COVID hit, my mother in law needed help up in Oregon.So I went to Oregon to help her January before COVID happened in March.And while I was up there, I was watching a channel called the Great Courses and in there was a section on biblical scholars.So I watched it.And I was listening to various different biblical scholars and one talked about Gnosticism and one talked about this and that and the other.And origin and Uranus and all the different church fathers down through time.And they had mentioned Michael Heiser.
And so I looked into Michael Heiser and I bought a couple of his books.So I began studying the biblical scholar Michael Heiser.And I was talking to Melissa about it because I’m being drawn to Christianity.I was listening to biblical scholars over several months during COVID when I wasn’t at home doing transcriptions because I had the time for it.
And now I’m reading Michael Heiser and I’m talking to her about it.And I told her, I said, you know, Melissa, I’m not really listening to the reduxes because I had 17 years of listening to Alan’s talk.
I’d listened to Alan’s talks three or four or five times each.I had enough repetition.I knew what Alan talked about.I didn’t need any more.
I told her, I said, listen to your hour long lead up to it, but I don’t actually listen to the redux itself.And I said that I was exploring other things and 17 years is a long time.
And I was just kind of relieved to be able to explore other things because Alan consumed a huge portion of my life.I would say 40 hours per week or more.
Including the regular life that I had to live, keeping my house clean, going shopping, working part time.Eventually I got to the point where I didn’t have to work anymore, but it still, it consumed a lot of my life.And I was just happy to not be absorbed in it.I learned everything I was going to learn, right?So I’m talking to Melissa about this and that I’m being drawn to Christianity and that I had always been compelled to be baptized.And now this was not a recent phenomenon.I had been compelled to be baptized throughout most of my adult life.
I had just never gone through with it.So now here I am.I’m married.My husband’s a baptized Christian and I’m exploring Christianity and listening to biblical stars.
Trying to get a grip, figure it out, right?My big stumbling block was that I believed Jesus existed.I believed in the supernatural, but I never connected the supernatural with Jesus, God, and the Bible.I had never read the Bible.I tried once when I was like 14 and got totally confused.So now I’m being pulled back to it.I don’t even say pulled to it.
I’m drawn to it.The Lord is working on my heart and I’m talking to Melissa about this.
And so I get an email at 3:14 AM her time.
oh oh …
And here’s what it says.I’m going to paraphrase, but I will quote this first line here.
So I just woke up and felt compelled to write at 314 AM. How many of you wake up at 3.14 AM and grab your phone and write an email?
She’s compelled, right?
I feel compelled too, right now to at least respond to all your bs
And I’m thinking and she’s, oh, well, God must be compelling her, right?
She says that she could have waited and called, but where I’m at, she didn’t think that I would get her by the sound of her voice,
but that the written word would be more effective.
And I’m going, what do you mean where I’m at?
I’m feeling judged here. But I’m like, okay, well, she loves me. She’s my friend.
she is not your friend
you do not have friends for sure not at CTTM cult
She’s a Christian.
She goes to church.
She knows about spiritual warfare, right?
wrong
And she’s telling me that she thinks that my idea to be baptized by my husband at home is filled with symbolism.
And it’s a symbolic beginning in that she says, you might find that someday in the right band of followers of the example of Jesus that you are strengthened by having that decision publicly witnessed.And I’m going, well, because up until this point, I had been talking to Melissa about, yeah, I want to be baptized.I’m compelled to be baptized in that I had called several churches to find out that I had to join the church, go through classes, jump through hoops.I had to be approved and get approval from strangers and do it in front of strangers and just go through this whole big process.And not only in that is that I would have to first have to figure out what church, who, what, where, when, why, and how.And I’m like, wow, that’s just a whole lot of work.
When I feel drawn to God right now, why do I have to go through that?And I was talking to my husband about it.He goes, well, Diane, you do know that any baptized Christian can baptize you.
And I looked it up online and yeah, that’s true.And I said, well, then, honey, Chris, will you baptize me?And he was a little freaked out at first.I will say that, but he agreed to.
And so we had it set up for Easter, which was a month away.Actually, no, I think it’s more like two weeks away.
So I’m telling Melissa all this and she says, well, frankly, she was discouraged by our call,but that she recognizes that I’m on my path and that it might not be the same as her,but that the closest of followers are called to hold one another.So by follow or something, the closest of Christians and friends and people who love you were to hold one another and help her to boost people up.And I’m like, okay, even though you’re disappointed with my decision, you want to, you know, hold one another. Anyway, so she says, when I found Alan many years ago, I was clear that this was my direct link to God and that has never changed.
All other voices and choices faded away.She feels that Alan’s voice is the supernatural message for our time in our language
and that that’s why I also had a connection with Alan where I spoke with Alan in my mind and knew that Alan communicated in return and that this is why I have a kindred connection to others who experience the same.
And I’m like, well, the only other person that I know of that talks to Alan every day and I didn’t is Melissa.
So who are these people?I don’t know.So it’s her way of saying that’s why we have a connection because we both experienced this.
And I’m like, I, yeah, 20 years ago when that, it was actually in 2008, however many years ago that is,it was for a few hours, a few times a week for a couple of months and all that went away.
Now, did I have Alan what in my ear every day?Five days a week, 40 hours a week.Yeah, I did.I had Alan in my ear for 17 years.But was I talking back and forth with him?
No.
So, Melissa continues on here.
So she’s saying this is why you have a kindred connection with others who experience the same.I’m like, well, you’re the only person, Melissa.
Okay, so this is why she and I have this connection and there were times where we were psychically connected.
I knew she was about to call or something, right?So she’s saying that Alan’s message was nearly identical to that of Jesus in calling out the evil in this world and stating that will always be that way.
Like, wow, well, that’s not very hopeful.And that that’s why people will always be drawn to Alan because of that message that his message is just as powerful and it’s nearly identical to that of Jesus.
Well, I don’t know about that because I don’t know much about Jesus already talked about.
I hadn’t read the Bible yet.She says maybe it’s just where you are.Okay, that you no longer feel the need to listen into the reduxes or maybe because he’s dead that I don’t talk to him all day long as I did before. Well, I never did.
And I don’t need his voice.
No, I don’t.
I learned everything I was going to learn from him.
17 years listening to all of this talk three, four, five times each.
I got it.I’m full.I understand it.Right.But she’s kind of saying, you know, you know, you should be listening to it.
And here’s what she says.
That when she talked to me from Canada that she remembered telling me to continue having that conversation with Alan.
And in that way, I would not be led astray.So I’m looking at this now at the time when I first got it.I was like, oh my gosh, she’s guiding me even though I’m getting mixed messages here and I’m feeling a little judged where I’m at and disappointed because my husband’s going to baptize me.But I’m going to be led astray unless I stay connected with her and with Alan.
And, you know, so because I don’t know anything about Christianity really yet.I just know I’m drawn to be baptized and I’m going to follow that.So she goes into this two paragraph tirade about Michael Heiser, that biblical scholar I was talking to you about now.He’s on the bad guy’s side and that he is inverting Jesus’s message.And so I’m like, oh my gosh, I never looked into this, that and the other.And oh my gosh.So I’m feeling like Melissa’s pulling me off the edge of a cliff.
oh come on Diane, lady M would never do that …sounds like a conspiracy theory to me
Wow.
Okay
.And so she also talks about in her experience, the mystical experience of God, the union that Alan said, the yearning that Alan said can’t be taken away when you take away religion.
She says, can only be accessed as described by Alan.So in my experience, the mystical experience of God, that blissful union that is the yearning Alan said cannot be removed from us when they take away religion can only be accessed as described by Alan.And then in parentheses or the red letters, which are the words of Jesus, and that that painful journey into the depths of our own mind.
And we come face to face with our own choices. And then there’s many like a mystical, you know, connections and, you know, et cetera, et cetera, and the inward journey.
And so she’s going on.And I’m like, wow.You know, I don’t even know how to take this email.I got had so many mixed emotions and different feelings going on with it.It really confused me.
But I’m thinking Melissa is my friend.
SHE IS NOT YOUR FRIEND
She’s a Christian.
I’m going to, you know, I guess I’m going to follow her lead.
Am I going to be listening to the Reduxes anymore?
No.I’m still doing transcripts, which means I’m listening to Alan still.
I’m getting burned out on it.I’m looking forward to being finished with it.
Right.
So she ends it off saying that her path is of Christianity is one of an orthodoxy to be sure.And that she finds the lie with all organized Christianity is without exception is raising Jesus up to the Son of God,that the search for a connection with that creator is the most important journey,and that Alan’s words resonate for those of us yearning for a supernatural experience in this life.
So those of us yearning for a supernatural experience,I’m going to take that to mean that she’s yearning for supernatural experiences because I’m not particularly, I just want to be baptized, right?
She says, I simply never trusted any voice, but Alan’s from the moment I heard him.And I still don’t.
And then she’s rooting for me.And I’m like, wow, okay, that’s a whole lot of crap going on there.When all I want to do is be baptized and talk to my friend about it.
Okay.I’m getting judged.I’m being pulled off a cliff because the guy that I’m studying is bad.And, you know, I need to listen to all day long or if I don’t listen to Alan all day long, I’m going to be led astray.It’s just a whole lot of insanity here.And so I’m thinking about this as I’m doing the presentation.I’m going, well, 3am, that’s the witching hour.
That’s the point in time of the day where the veil between this world and the supernatural world.Is the thinnest.It’s believed that the boundary between the world and the paranormal world is the thinnest at this time.Demons and spirits of the darker said to be able to cross our world at this time.So I’m going, wow, that’s interesting.
It was 3am.
And so now it’s 845 in the morning.
She sends me another email because I did not respond to that.I’m like trying to digest it and figure it out.I think I read it two or three times.
And she’s like, she’s telling me why Alan stayed with a historical agenda and that me doing the transcripts was bloody, blah, good for the world and whatever.
And she said, well, that being said, people take breaks from Alan.
And I’m like, oh, well, thank you for your blessing is what I remember thinking.
Anyway, but she says, I just know that modern Christianity is a minefield.
And I’m going, wow, here we go again.
And that she wants the best for me, meaning my soul and my spirit.
So she’s disagreeing.
She’s disappointed.
we are all disappointed D in all of you muppets
But she, you know, but she wants the best for my soul and my spirit.
So apparently that’s not being baptized by my husband.
And it must include Alan Watt listening to you and talking to him all day every day.
And to her Reduxes and having Alan in my ear 24 seven.
And I’m like, no, I’m done.
I’m burnt out.
I’m going to take a break.
And I guess I’m getting her blessing.
That being said, people take breaks from Alan.
Well, thank you.
Anyway, so I’m compelled to be baptized.
My husband and I have it scheduled for Easter of 2023.
And it’s now April 9th, the morning of Easter, and my husband baptized me in our tub.
It was me, my little doggy Dixie, my husband, Jesus, the angels witnessed it.
And that’s all I needed.That was enough for me.And I had a supernatural experience.
So I’m solidly a Christian now and have been studying the Bible ever since two solid years.
I’m on my third time through with a Bible companion.So anyhow, I’m a baptized Christian.
So we’ll take you back into the timeline of April of 23.Now, I don’t know how it was the spring of 23.
Now, soon after I was baptized, but not too long, maybe two or three weeks, Melissa calls me and we’re chatting.
And I don’t even remember what we were talking about.I happened to be out in the garage doing something.She says, well, guess what?Did I ever tell you that when I was packing up Alan’s things to move down to this stage?She says, I found his baptismal papers and that he was 30 years old.And I’m like, oh my God, wow, I had no idea he never let on.
I thought that was cool because now I’m thinking, oh my God, I’m part of this cool Christian group of people, you know, my husband, me, Melissa and Alan now.
You know, I’m not real interested in going to a church and doing that.But my interest is in studying at home on my own, interacting with my husband and finding other people out there online or on YouTube that know about the supernatural.And so that’s what I’m interested in.And so I’m like, oh my gosh, Alan was a Christian.That’s fantastic.Right.So, okay, time moving.She’s like, yeah, I found his baptismal papers, yada, yada, yada.I’m like, we’re awesome.
so , lady Diana , where exactly is your big news , I see nothing really , just our work being stolen that is all and loads of guff
anyway , dear readers we leave it at that
all the best and make sure none of those clowns is under your bed tonight ..I´m so sorry D, haven´t detected your ” awesomeness” yet, working on it…
Another smear campaign by a psy-operation program. How predictable.
JOe, I listened to Alan Watt for three years. He was a regular on Jackie Patru’s show. How much do you know about Alan Watt. What town did he grow up in? What jobs did he have? I don’t think you know this guy at all but if you choose not to look at the data that is available fine by me. Glen Kealey and a blog called Illuminatus Observor are my sites of choice for now.
Wishing you well.
BCing you,
sovereignjohn
Here’s the lowdown on Allan. Born Bannockburn Scotland 1951. Education was at a Secondary modern school (tech school) as he could not keep up at the High school he attended. Is qualified as a Registered Mental Nurse, Which was obtained by study at Belsdyke Hospital in Scotland (now defunct) Has basically panhandled his way through life sponging from friends and acquaintances. In his own words “there is no lie he will not tell to get what he wants or to further his agenda”. Lived in my house for 2 years and contributed not thin dime for his and his girlfriends keep. He married Judy a Canadian citizen to get entry to Canada and has since settled there. Judy got dumped as soon as he was eligible to stay in Canada. Good riddance to him and his panhandling ways. Canada’s gain is Scotland’s loss, Don’t think so your welcome to him. Hope Allan comes on here to rebut this, He will have a hard job rebutting the truth.