So this Diana story, it is a long long story , Diana is the decades long transcriber of Cuttingthroughthematrix.com , almost a founder more or less you could say.
She worked as transcriber for Alan from the early days onwards, say started about 2008 or so, a full time job, transcribing Alan Watt´s talks, I did see the name ” Diana” pass by a few times, think it is mainly the RBN days of Alan she put to text. Ya, 40 hours a week 17 years , without pay. Hmmm…that is what you call dedication, sacrifice for the greater good ….
I will tell you the story in my own words, there are many reasons for that, I do not want to make it too longwinded, esp as most of the public nowadays cannot focus too long, thanks to the iphones and all the rest of it, attention spans of fruit flies… so yes after Alan died , which is another topic we have not even touched upon, but that aside, as Alan died this girlfriend Melissa, not wife, just some friend really , again , another story in itself, did move back to Texas, quite soon , or at least that is the story Diana tells us, so within a few weeks or so she moved down to Texas, some will notice the story line already has changed as Debess claimed Melissa immediately picked her up , debess aka Joleigh , and moved her and M to texas but that is according to Diana not the case, so Diana forks over 2k , remember these are all claims…to help lady M move to texas.
So she does that and than takes care of her dad who is on his last legs, etc etc , it is strange that Diana does not ” remember” exactly how M got in texas, by car, bus , whatever..bit vague..but she takes care of her dad who soon passes away than Super bee, you know Queen Bee Melissa hops over to capture Debess from North Carolina and brings her to texas in the car of Debess and she , debess starts working for CTTM for free, for about a years and a half….before they break up….
Debess does live in a trailer nearby , she rents herself, and lives with the webmaster a certain Kevin aka Weston, yes all persons have aliases to make it nice and complicated…
I will skip through timelines here to not make it too tedious and boring, short story is after debess has left , meaning kicked out after arguments with M , lady Diana takes it upon herself to ” help Melissa” that is a theme that keeps recurring…” help” …I see it more as forcing herself desperately on Melissa or infiltrating or making herself important or whatever, it seems lady Diana has plenty of cash and plenty of time, another theme that is recurring of folk surrounding the CTTM CULT, it is a CULT
Big time.
Diana is a cult member for decades and totally brainwashed in the cult, a total slave if you like to Melissa without really realizing it , she only wants to do goody goody and as I said before forces her ” love” on Melissa to ” help her”, that excuse comes back over and over and over again, Diana buys endless amount of stuff, computers, screens, in order to make Melissa make an income ?
Or , at least, that is what Diana claims.
Later on it turns out Melissa does not seem to need money , but that is another angle. We will come back to that later, children.
All in due time…so yes Diana keeps buying stuff and comes up with all sorts of ideas to flog money out of the alan watt listeners, followers, help melissa to exploit this Alan Watt Persona to the max, that is what it comes down to , make new merchandize bla bla , you get the idea, money money money …. we have an USB stick project, we have some sort of booklets crap , whatever, anyway Diana had seen Alan in a dream or vision , yes , honestly , no shit, and alan , from the other side, told her to make booklets as that is what any guru would tell you , if they enter this reality, make a fucking booklet , sell it to the sheeple , exploit my work even more , not for the greater good, just for your own purse, that is exactly what Alan would have said 🙂
Have to keep the smirking to a minimum here , holy crap what a BS Story is that…anyway…
So as lady Melissa is always awfully busy with crap and nonsense, doing her pathetic shows and crappy bs interviews, she never has time, thus, the Cult member Diana is now put in front of the wagon while melissa paints her nails, you know, doing very important stuff , none of us earthlings can understand…so the cow Diana keeps chewing grass all the time, slaving away , first happily, actually quite a long period of happy cult activities.
Thus Diana does it all really , doing all those projects , paying through the nose all the time , to ” help the guru”
There were a few red flags in a few years but they were happily ignored by Frau Diana, of course , a good cult member sees nothing , hears nothing and certainly never talks…for heavens sake…
So…M invites D to a visit, of course , being a cult member she happily agrees wiggling her tail, to fly out to M in Texas, no big deal for Diana, money is never a problem…So Diana arrives at Melissa s place….the idea is to move furniture and boxes , another long story , wont go into all that crap, in other words , to slave away for Melissa as she is such a ” grieving widow” …yawn…and so tired and this and that , as she is so busy painting her nails every day and making cookies she has no time for you know, real work..duhhhh that is not the role of a Queen , a Queen does not work, bees work.
There is an issue with an envelope as Guru M needed money for operation for nose and what was it , property taxes ? Whatever, so Diana groveling hands over an envelope with another 2000 bucks , which are received and put in apron with a thank you and than a remark , the costs are already covered, so , in simple terms the money is not needed, but for the Queen that is a non issue so Diana is a bit amazed by that but , as usual, thinks ” not much” of it , she never thinks too much you see, our Diana, being top cult member never questions anything , esp in regard to the role of Queen bee, she sorts of sucks it all up…..I know it sounds weird , like how the F can you not notice ? But brainwashing is severe in a cult, do not underestimate that, children…it is serious stuff once you are under the spell it is not easy to escape for some..at least not for Diana….so they do clean up and move furniture which is heavy work , for TWO weeks !!! no kidding…must have been a lot of boxes !!!
Again , keep in mind the story is much longer but filled with endless prattle of her ladyship Diana, self pity and mud slinging at the Guru M , etc etc, stuff we can skip , if we skip Diana s excuses as they are silly excuses for her OWN behavior…we can skip about 80 % of the crap in the story 🙂 maybe 90%
Also , around that time as D was in texas on a VIP visit to Queen bee she noticed boxes of Kevin aka ” young weston” the webmaster..who had overnight left a while before, it is never explained, naturally , why , he left…that is another theme that keeps popping its ugly head up, the WHY is never gone into, obviously mrs D does not care much for reasons or facts , she just nods and thinks it is all ok, or , if not, she thinks well the guru has so much on her plate, I will not bother her with my silly peasant thoughts about things…you get the point..ignores RED FLAGS ..deliberately..
So Kevin will not collect his stuff, for a mysterious reason….so all the boxes with books and personal stuff, shoes, whatever, just stand in the garage, nothing to worry about Diana, all cool, keep breathing calmly please, do not ask any questions or you know, just keep Queen bee happy….than there is an interview in which Diana can talk but Queen bee is not interested in Diana s story at all and talks over her, later on another interview, but later on both interviews are scrubbed by Queen bee, no reason given. Well some of you , those who have a brain can figure out the reason…
So Diana leaves….comes back home, starts thinking, I thought that was taboo for a cult member as that will get you into trouble, if you start thinking and it will get her in trouble later on as the story goes on…
While she was in Texas with the Guru , the Guru told her some stuff about the legal struggles over Alan s estate , cash , bla bla and it turns out there is a lot of dollars involved, mrs Diana , as usual , did not bother to think of that while she had a talk with her, no no , ah , yikes , no , but it sinks in it is a lot of cash involved , connected to the Site or brand name or company Alan Watt Media
It seems the family of alan have offered a stipend and other things like she could keep the CTTM websites etc but for Queen bee that was an insult , she was not interested , she wants it all.
A bit of an odd move you may think for an old grieving widow with not much cash ? Indeed a strange move…
So maybe Queen Bee is not so strapped for cash at all, or , at least that is a conclusion you might come to , rationally speaking, she obviously does not need money.
She wants everything, hmm at least Queen Bee s ego is still unharmed for all the grief…..
Yes that Ego is substantial , just like alan s bank account
Of course lady Diana never wonders much about such matters, I know it is hard for most of us to fathom how can anyone be so gullible and stupid or naive , it is probably part of brainwashing
as lady D is a vulnerable soul in many ways, needs friendship etc you get the point, she can take a lot of beating or abuse and she has………which is sad, we are not ridiculing her of course
It is a nasty situation here as Diana only wants the best for Queen Bee but is stuck in some sort of tunnel visioncannot see reality or facts clearly…not yet anyway…that comes later…
Again we skip 80 per cent of Diana long winded crappy story about silly things, point is , she goes into therapy with Jon Uhler, a specialist in SRA and MK Ultra victims.
That goes very well and lady Diana makes amazing progress, you can clearly see that in her footage, she becomes a new person over time.
Bottom line is , of course, Queen bee realizes , as she is after all the Guru and smart that her foot soldier wont stick around too long once healing starts
That was indeed the case as D starts to wake up and becomes a bit more self aware, also Queen Bee now tries to move Diana away from the Healer
For obvious reasons which causes a conflict.
So
In short the relationship or friendship or exploitation of Diana stops….as Diana will not give up her healing journey for M and starts to realize she has been used
maybe not in the good old CTTM days, but for sure by Queen bee for a few years…she invested a lot of cash in melissa to ” help her”
I am not sure why Diana has to explain the ” rift ” in four hour talks but that aside….
So the relationship ends and Diana is , as you can imagine, being 30 k lighter and realizing you have been used a bit …..pissed off…
Some, like me, would say well that is your own fault, some are perhaps milder than me….I see it as her own fault. Mainly because she deliberately ignored all red flags and there were MANY
But that is not all…
So we have D now going wild over CTTM Queen bee , ranting , mudslinging , moping the floor with M , bla bla bla …but in her ” videos” or whatever she calls her tirade or crusade against her guru, she uses OUR evidence without authorization, important topic !!!! ,she goes behind our backs, steals and illegally uses our evidence, photos, documentation in her own rather silly attacks against Queen bee M , this I do not tolerate, will never tolerate and is not going to happen. There for the videos , her BS against CTTM will not be made public.
NEVER.
You see, years ago when we build and did our hard work, mrs Diana could not be bothered even though she was aware but could not give a F what was going on, she , Diana is utterly selfish , only cares about herself. Which is obvious otherwise she would not have stolen our work and use it for her own selfish ends against the Guru in Texas.
Mrs Diana has no friends, jee , I wonder why ?????
Anyway, that whole thing did piss me off a lot and I made that known but she has an awful character, as said , like many women nowadays , no accountability
she is not guilty for her own faults , a typical modern woman. So yes it is a silly pathetic selfish attack on lady M , that is my view. Simply an ex cult member, yes same story , line for line as lady Joleigh aka Debess , exactly the same story , except Joleigh is truly demonic whereas Diana is rather simple or gullible , but you get the point here, children, it is ONLY because Queen bee refused D to have contact , aka it got personal , and ONLY than D got involved and said no, she could not care for other things that is the point I am making here.
NOW , suddenly , boom, M is evil and bad and this and that and bla bla bla…
Oh really , where were you all this time when all the other stuff took place and you do not care a hoot about all the people that have been taken down over the years , a mass slaughter , but Diana does not care, it is only me me me
She did say a few things, personal hurtful or sensitive things about Alan and M but I will NOT go into that, will NOT give Diana that satisfaction, oh sure there are issues for sure with M in Texas but that is something personal. D did never care for anything so do not expect us to cry crocodile tears now. No D that is not how it works. THAT is not how it works.
She is so full of herself our little ex cult member she does not even care to steal our material , not asking or caring, no no , just steal it and slam it on Cuttingthroughthematrix Cult.
It is truly beyond pathetic, so out of sync , out of touch with reality, I dont know, and we said if you want to rant or bark or boo, fine, do as you please but you will not use our material, you have no right and respect , Diana, no care , no respect, you self-centered little goon.
When I complain about it to mrs D I am ” vile” and this and that, because I dont bend over or suck up her BS stories, you see , I dont bend over for her cry baby stories and she is not pleased with that, with my ” toxic masculinity” by just saying NO
Whining cry baby stories, you will not have my sympathy D , you silly ex cult member , you did it all to yourself , happily so , you could not do enough, and now the butteflies are gone and you throw your candy sticks over the floor and we are supposed to feel sorry for you ? When did you ever feel sorry for us ? Never.
You cheat, steal, lie , manipulate, bring your pathetic personal crap into the public arena like a disgruntled toddler and we are supposed to cheer you on babe , are you for real ?
Get a grip on things D
Of course after willingly slaving away for four years D knows the dirt on M but that dirt will not be posted here, you can forget about that. This platform is meant to bring light into the mystery not as a crusade platform against the Cult. For those of you who have read through the posts etc you can grasp what my opinion is about the cult. That is obvious enough. We do not need a cry baby here that steals our work and is mentally very unstable.
Well it seems frau D has setup a few websites, but not linked to it, so no one is ever gonna see it , she is afraid Melissa is gonna take the sites down , well yes, she tried , rather succesfully and had D remove several things, like the interviews she did , two bimbos together, that is just done out of spite by M of course for no real reason, just to get back at D, it worked.
She, D, ran with her tail between her legs and has a site setup which no one will ever find, has a link only on her FB page ya, wow, what exposure , hmmm you get give visits a year
and after a minute they leave too to see a cry wolf story……
If the ex transcriber Diana wants to go on a crusade she has my blessing but do your own work , your own path, do not steal other people s work and it is obvious D simply does not jive with logic, it does not sink in. I wish you success – in this hunt
I may touch on a few topics, briefly, but they are so vague…and even D admitted while she was in Texas as Guru told her tons of stories about Alan which were rather vague and weird that M could have made it all up , oh my goodness , you mean the obvious SHILL M would ..dare I say it…tell a few porkies here and there …gosh gosh…every fourth word that comes out that smirky mouth is a lie. Big time. No mystery there. Some weird crap about Alan , this and that, bla bla , not relevant…and some slander as said before, it may be true, but it is not so relevant really that M was married when she went up to Canada , to cuddle with alan , which technically was more like an escape or flight really , like she was running away from a dark past, gosh, does that surprise us , not really that was expected , live like his dog for many years ….etc etc….of course for the smarter ones amongst you , you will ask the important questions, like ….why did he not marry her, or arrange stuff, yaaaaaa…bingo…. why did M live there under different name yaaaaaaaaa….those things
accurate questions….which would tell a lot more ….
however , lady Diana cannot be bothered with such deep analysis, she rants on that M does not like her therapist and THAT is her reason for the breakup, believe it or not.
I find the story hard to believe, I dont know, just weird. Some could say maybe Diana tried to infiltrate us ? Coming up with a crappy emotional story in the hope we ” take her in” and use her as a battering ram against the Cult, sorry , that is not gonna happen.
As they are not married or have arrangements I do not understand why it all takes so long to settle , legally I mean ?
Find it all very weird. Yes it is of course mostly just about the money in the CTTM company account, millions it seems so yes.
And some silly prattle about copyright or trademarks, at least Frau Regine who brought that up as first one is correct in that respect.
Than there was a story, again , is it true , and even if so , so what or are do we have to look a lot deeper ? Are we being played here ?
Is Diana being played …there was a story that M was heaving meltdown, she seems to have had that a lot , about missing USB sticks…..so D told M where the sticks where…and it was important
information on it, so she found the sticks and D said like what is so important about it , are there documents on it with legal stuff , no , said M, it is Alan and me having sex…
🙂
So the ” fifty shades of Melissa” were found…and according to Diana shown in court or lawyers or whatever, family , oh my….hello…
well webmaster for a million many folk would pull down their skirt … hahahaha
yaa…what to think of it , I dont know, it is weird and bizarre like most stuff in this mystery….makes your head spin…as Alan , as we known him was rather unlikely to make ” blue movies”
the guy did not even have a cellphone and lived more recluse than a monk
I dont know what to make of it, also, on a deeper level , think think…was Alan even aware he was being taped while picking Melissa s flowers ?
See, this can go in all directions…there is nothing wrong with it, on the contrary , shows they were quite ehm natural but I dont know…was it just an excuse to shy away D from what really was on the sticks ? Could be…
Was it a security policy of M , behind Alan s back , could be too…
See , it can go all ways ….black mail perhaps , could be , if needed, see you can go all over the place with such things
Also , even if so, what does it prove, that they were cuddling, so what, big deal , does not mean she lived there full time etc…find it all a bit strange and awkward…and…of course…as you all can imagine…mrs D ” did not bother ” to investigate or you know, make sure of things and you know bla bla bla…in short , she ran like virgin from ” such information” maybe that was the purpose …wink wink…Hmm interesting for sure…
If all goes belly up one could put those clips on several sticks and sell them for serious cash
I mean wow…ya…would sure solve a lot of financial problems wowee…there will be a few buyers for that one..so in that sense it is a good investment..
Anyway , I dont find that stuff too interesting to be honest, bit boring really, is that the best D can come up with knowing M quite intimately for four years ???
That s not much ..and using our videos in her rants ??? She prattles a bit about it but it is all silly or not so important…
but when you look at all this crap from the side of Queen Bee it makes of course perfect sense
for all those years she had a cult member , either debess or D work for her, she did not work much , as she had so much on her plate…and besides a Queen does not work.
The underlings work.
She only supervises.
That is the natural order.
Since Alan left us all we see coming out of cuttingthroughthematrix is crap and guff and prattle , I think that is intentional, but that is that.
Smearing mud over a Picasso on purpose to drive away or steer away the herds from his work , that is my interpretation.
Anyway of course to make a long story short , sure , there is massive gaslighting from Queen bee to Diana and she falls in the trap , head line and sinker
totally fooled, that is their personal crap , I see no need to put up their cry wolf videos here, that last HOURS of endless gossip and pathetic prattle as mrs D has now found a new cult, it is called religion…and she rants on about all that crap till it comes out of your nose….total zealot..in her footage…quiet repulsive….even calling Alan a demon because he did not flog us with a bible or some other ” holy book” you see, so yes she lost track with reality our poor lady D ….let us hope she finds herself in her sessions with counselor Jon.
A lot of progress has to be made !!
you know the types, like vegans….
or just your randomly toxic friends…
but I do not think anyone could have avoided that
if anyone would have warned D beforehand she would have laughed and ridiculed you…
That is that…
Cult behavior pure sang.
A nice friendly replay from her ladyship Diana after I brought facts to the table, but , like most modern women , she cannot be held accountable, nope
no accountability…if I disagree with her low quality manners and approaches I am ” vile”
ya….charming character..
Oh she forbade you …really …so you still suck up to her , is that what you are saying here ?
Thought you left the cult by now ?
27 views, thinks are rosy Diana…keep on the good work…
That is from our video material , so after four years in close contact with the darkness in texas this shit is the best she can come up with OUR material !!!
good grief…
That is not really true as Alan was married before, long ago , even M admitted that ( a rare exception which she had to correct immediately by stating she was his second, obvious lie ) at least once and left her…again another story for another day …dont want to make it too complicated…
Of course , those of you who can think , will perhaps ask the right questions, like ……….. how did Alan ´s stuff all end up in boxes in Texas if Queen bee is just a chick ?
Simple questions like that, Diana could not be bothered to ask such things…she also , like M , has that obsessive need to interject her own crap in other peoples work, Diana get your claws off our work, make your own material. After four years you can come with something , clown. Does not feel the need to tell where she got the material from even though the youtube channel clearly mentioned the sites, but , again, she could not be bothered…oh feck off D , get lost
This is a true mystery , as you can or have seen the crap Debess said about her CULT life which lasted decades….half of it is lies…or twisted truths…it is all very bizarre…for example why did D not dig deeper why Debess left ?
Obvious things, nope D cannot be bothered, meaning she does not give a F about it all , only about herself…she does not WANT to know…and now feels so sorry for herself and screams Queen bee is a sorcerer or witch / witchcraft because M has spiritual contact with Alan, …Diana…that is not your problem…keep your personal problems to yourself , Diana, thank you for listening
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