A sudden gust scatters petals, and the bees twist and turn to steady their flight. The traveler feels disoriented, yet notices patterns in the chaos. Each disruption carries a lesson: adaptation, resilience, and the hidden order behind apparent disorder.
New voices enter the scene — the Crow and the Mouse.
The Crow, Mrs. Diana, once transcribed Alan’s talks with tireless devotion, year after year.
Her work preserved the rhythm of his thought, translating spoken current into written light.
But after Alan’s passing, she, too, was drawn toward the Hive — the domain of the Bee — believing at first that goodwill guided its hum. For a time, she spoke warmly in interviews, recalling early days of work and camaraderie.
Then, without warning, those records disappeared — shows deleted, archives cut away, silence where her voice had been.
It was the Mouse, from Germany, who noticed the gaps and whispered to the Traveler: “Something is missing.”
Behind the scenes, the Crow and Bee quarreled. Feathers flew — not of malice, but of disillusionment.
The Crow, generous by nature, had helped the Bee during those uncertain months — paid debts, taxes, travel, and more — acts of friendship turned sour.
Soon after, she spoke publicly, her words raw but clear: devotion misplaced, trust betrayed.
The Crow’s revelations hinted at deeper struggles — legal, financial, spiritual. Alan’s legacy, his land, his name , his funds — all became contested ground. And as the Crow withdrew, she warned that something sacred was being reshaped in secrecy.
The Mouse had seen this pattern too — the movement of ownership, the quiet transfer of rights.
Her clues led the Traveler to follow the trail of paper and ink. What he found confirmed the whisper: Alan Watt’s company had been moved to Texas.
This was not rumor. It was registration. And its meaning, like the crow’s call at dusk, lingered long after the echo faded.
After 17 years of free service as a transcriber , giving her best years to the Cult it seems we have a disgruntled employee on our hands…seems the baby is thrown out with the bathwater. What did Alan always say ? Do not take anyone as your guru, not even me, he said that many times, we know , even Jackie Patru did mention that before she fell out with Alan and that was one of the reasons for their disagreement and friction , many folk look up to Alan as a Deity and she was not pleased with it but had to accept that part of human nature, ok, fine, that is not Alan´s fault, he even warned you NOT to do that, as it can only go one way.
Or as he put it ” I am not a cheerleader for the public”, because we all know how that will end as the guru at some stage cannot deliver as it is your journey, not Alan´s.
You admitted yourself you were blown away by him, he changed your life and than you offered to work for free for Cuttingthroughthematrix.com Cult. Fine, that is your choice. Choices come with responsibilities and risks.
You put Alan on a pedestal, you could not help yourself, like many out there, no one can live up to such divine standards. Especially after the management takeover at CTTM, so they do not live up to your insane standards anymore , thus, now both Alan and the Bee are ruthlessly thrown under the bus.
You paid for everything in regard to the Return of the Bee, fine, that is your choice, you were naïve, you allowed the Bee to make use of you as anyone would have done in those situations.
This traveler is not saying the Texan Bee is innocent, far from !
The point is you allowed it to happen, that was your responsibility, your discernment or lack thereof and now you pay the price and you do not want to hear truth , as it truly hurts, so now you throw out , as said, the baby with the bathwater.
Now you go off the handle in regard to religion, even though Alan often warned us be careful , authorized religions are a deception and that is true. You claim because Alan Watt did not exactly say what you , now, want to hear, ergo , Alan is bad or deceptive , well that is utter rubbish what you say.
We do see where you are coming from and you do have a right to be very upset about it, you surely have a point. Your received treatment from the Texan Cult was unacceptable, but please keep things in perspective. Do not go overboard with it all and most importantly – Think For Yourself.
There are many shadows around Alan Watt, so be it, it is as it is. That is not the within the realm of this blog. He is just a messenger do not accept him as your guru because no one can be god in this dimension.
Alan talked about a lot of stuff in great depth, however over time you start to notice there were many , many topics he would not touch with a ten foot pole, that is what we call food for thought. Think for yourself.
You went ” religious shopping” ( acc. to your own interviews with the Bee ) as he would put it into cults galore, new age, scientology and now you found jesus..
You worship humans as gods and when it fails, as it sooner or later always does ..you cry wolf… this traveler is not too impressed with your show there. At least you admitted your were a fool, have to give you that, so you see, ” know thyself” …it is manifesting slowly now.
The hard way.
Also let us keep in mind it was you , lady Crow, who came up with all sorts of “methods” like those flash-drive nonsense to squeeze money out of the public for Alan´s For Free material on the Bee´s behalf, let us not gloss over that point there , shall we ? Also those booklets were of your design, your projects to press money out of the public, that is not the Bee´s fault.
That was clearly not a sign of great respect, love and care and honesty for the public at all.
So we see the same exact thing as the Butterfly here, this total devotion and unreasonable standards that has to fail and now all cry wolf.
This traveler feels sorry to break it to you, lady Crow, humans are not gods.
There is a good heart in you but it is misguided.
Find the balance you need and see humans as humans and make sure those who you offer your services to are worthy as that is obviously not the case here.
Yes it is sad to hear the Bee is still after his funds , trying to push out Alan´s sisters , hiring lawyers and the rest of it and so on and so forth which are as you said substantial, yes , well ? Is it still not clear what you are dealing with, ah I see.. NOW it is clear, took a while … 3 years after the new eh ..management took over but all good things come to those who wait.
Still, it is good you brought that up , that was a suspicion of us which has now been confirmed, thank you Crow.
When the traveler calculates it all , say 30 k a year, we sort of end up at half a million dollar you worked for the ” company” and now to add injury to insult all your hard work is also made inaccessible for the public, as only CTTM has copyright and enforces it ruthlessly, as a weapon, ask me how this traveler knows.
Funny side note is if you dare to share your own work which you created for CTTM, CTTM will come after you and take you down.
The circle is round and it is closing. Cuttingthroughthematrix also took down your interviews with Bee Melissa , the traveler is fully aware of all that , Crow.
It clearly shows CTTM is deliberately cutting ties with all those that knew Alan and The Bee wants the whole Beehive under her control.
They extinguish the light.
Alan Watt always promoted sharing of his work , his for free work , the talks but also the old stuff from Sweet Liberty with Jackie, which is still in our view the best, to print it out, leave it in the city at places, bars, salons, shops, anywhere so that more can at least have a chance to stumble upon it as it is very obfuscated and hidden by the PTB. He had no problem with that at all. As long if you play fair it was good enough for him.
Since the takeover or hijack of the company things have changed quite a lot , as we all know.
Which in a sense tells you all you really need to know about their objectives and sincerity.
Think for yourself. Be your own champion.